im so scared of going back to the mental hospital

[Soapie]

I really really can't handle going back there. It was so hard to sleep, the food kept making me throw up, and the loneliness hurt so bad. I can't do it again but I'm a danger to myself right now. The pain is becoming unbearable again and that hopeful part of me is fading away. Being happy is taking more and more effort and being in pain is becoming the norm. I don't want to go back, I just want to die. I just want it all to be over. I can't take this anymore I just want some fucking peace!!!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in so much pain, I know that it can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. The way you feel is understandable, mental hospitals do sound horrible. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Can you try a different facility? Or maybe an Outpatient program/Partial Hospitalization?

 

[forgetme]

Sometimes hospitals make things worse. I feel your pain. I'd suggest maybe a crisis house or one of those 24 hour places?

 

[loststar]

Im curently on my second psyche ward stay and am finding it far harder than the first