Venting I'm so lonely

[CoolGuy9]

Sitting around at my home being depressed sucks. During 2012-2015 I had friends who ruined my life and during 2015-2018 I had friends that I found boring. I don't really like to call them boring, because I know i'm boring and I hate how others think i'm boring, but I simply did not enjoy their company. About a month ago I got the opportunity to hang out with an old friend of mine who used to be part of the reason why my childhood was so great. I didn't enjoy his company. We both had changed so much that I have no interest in talking to him anymore. While i'm fine with not being friends with him anymore, I can't really seem to be friends with anyone. To make that connection with someone just seems impossible. I used to miss the days when I had really good friends, but even that feeling is starting to disappear. It's like i'm forgetting what it's like to be happy.

 

[elizabeth.luck]

Hey, you're not boring! Don't forget, you have Cool Guy in your username. Usernames don't lie. Chin up!!!

 

[SadGirl]

Sitting around at my home being depressed sucks. During 2012-2015 I had friends who ruined my life and during 2015-2018 I had friends that I found boring. I don't really like to call them boring, because I know i'm boring and I hate how others think i'm boring, but I simply did not enjoy their company. About a month ago I got the opportunity to hang out with an old friend of mine who used to be part of the reason why my childhood was so great. I didn't enjoy his company. We both had changed so much that I have no interest in talking to him anymore. While i'm fine with not being friends with him anymore, I can't really seem to be friends with anyone. To make that connection with someone just seems impossible. I used to miss the days when I had really good friends, but even that feeling is starting to disappear. It's like i'm forgetting what it's like to be happy.

I would like to be friends with this guy with "cool" in the name haha >.<'

 

[marcusuk63]

Sitting around at my home being depressed sucks. During 2012-2015 I had friends who ruined my life and during 2015-2018 I had friends that I found boring. I don't really like to call them boring, because I know i'm boring and I hate how others think i'm boring, but I simply did not enjoy their company. About a month ago I got the opportunity to hang out with an old friend of mine who used to be part of the reason why my childhood was so great. I didn't enjoy his company. We both had changed so much that I have no interest in talking to him anymore. While i'm fine with not being friends with him anymore, I can't really seem to be friends with anyone. To make that connection with someone just seems impossible. I used to miss the days when I had really good friends, but even that feeling is starting to disappear. It's like i'm forgetting what it's like to be happy.

i`m a Misanthrope i think

 

[neveranyhope]

I understand this so much. I lost the only friends who really ever understood me in my late 20s, due to addiction, various falling out things, etc. I know this isn't your situation but for me it's hard that they've stopped responding completely. I have "friends" now who I've known for a long time but there's such a distance between us... I can't open up. And you know people, they're like "I'm here for you!" But they think "curing" depression is a matter of saying "Chin up, you're successful and smart!" My god. Often the people I'm friendly with will says things so stupid I know I can't ever be close with them. And the closest friends i've Had get married, because Iguess they're somehow more deserving of a partner than I am. Marriage and kids are a friendship killer.

Loneliness is the worst. I wish humanscame with a kill switch. A benevolent god would have thought of that.