burninghill
Specialist
- Dec 2, 2025
- 369
All I can do is cry myself to sleep.
My sleep schedule has been terrible recently, staying up until 5am and waking up at 2. I lie to my parents and tell them my phone was just on do not disturb and I wasn't asleep, I was working on my website or art, but I'm a liar. I'm a lazy fucking liar.
All I do is wake up and go on overwatch for 8-12 hours a day. I haven't showered in ages and I only eat at dinner time.
I barely feel alive, I don't know what's wrong with me. When I look in the mirror I don't even recognise a person anymore, just some object almost.
I'm just so sad, I don't know. I just want to cry and throw up and hit myself. I used to be a person with hopes and aspirations, now I'm whatever this thing is. I really do disgust myself. I'm so upset. I wish I could be more than this but I just hate myself so much
My sleep schedule has been terrible recently, staying up until 5am and waking up at 2. I lie to my parents and tell them my phone was just on do not disturb and I wasn't asleep, I was working on my website or art, but I'm a liar. I'm a lazy fucking liar.
All I do is wake up and go on overwatch for 8-12 hours a day. I haven't showered in ages and I only eat at dinner time.
I barely feel alive, I don't know what's wrong with me. When I look in the mirror I don't even recognise a person anymore, just some object almost.
I'm just so sad, I don't know. I just want to cry and throw up and hit myself. I used to be a person with hopes and aspirations, now I'm whatever this thing is. I really do disgust myself. I'm so upset. I wish I could be more than this but I just hate myself so much
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