SHThrowAway213
That's the hell I live with
- Apr 19, 2018
- 659
Everything is getting too much.
Too much stress, money issues are about to start, don't know when returning to work.
PTSD has been a bitch recently.
Need therapy but the NHS said no.
Can't afford private.
My husband might of found a new job.
This is very good and very bad at the same time .
Temporary, 12 an hour, 4 days a week.
12 hour shifts, he might have to work nights sometimes.
My mental health is more bad at night, I'm so much more paranoid.
Also, that's 12 hours to myself. I wont be able to handle it.
But we need the money.
But I completely fucked up. I lost his birth certificate, so he might not even get this job because I lost it, and they need it for his DBS check. We do have a replacement one coming, but they needed it yesterday.
I know when I return to work, it will only be part time.
He needs this job, but that's 12 hours I'll be by myself, and that might be a night.
I'm just tired of everything I guess.
Something always goes wrong.
Everything always goes wrong, all the time. I'm just waiting for the next big thing.
I can't leave.
It would wreck my husband, and he is under stress already due to the job situation. But I can't hold on any longer.
I must leave, but I can't.
Too much stress, money issues are about to start, don't know when returning to work.
PTSD has been a bitch recently.
Need therapy but the NHS said no.
Can't afford private.
My husband might of found a new job.
This is very good and very bad at the same time .
Temporary, 12 an hour, 4 days a week.
12 hour shifts, he might have to work nights sometimes.
My mental health is more bad at night, I'm so much more paranoid.
Also, that's 12 hours to myself. I wont be able to handle it.
But we need the money.
But I completely fucked up. I lost his birth certificate, so he might not even get this job because I lost it, and they need it for his DBS check. We do have a replacement one coming, but they needed it yesterday.
I know when I return to work, it will only be part time.
He needs this job, but that's 12 hours I'll be by myself, and that might be a night.
I'm just tired of everything I guess.
Something always goes wrong.
Everything always goes wrong, all the time. I'm just waiting for the next big thing.
I can't leave.
It would wreck my husband, and he is under stress already due to the job situation. But I can't hold on any longer.
I must leave, but I can't.
