Venting I'm sick and tired of being anxious

[deathislife]

My god my anxiety never goes away. It's always something or the other. There's no peace from this feeling. My heart's racing, hands shaking, I feel like tearing my hair out but I can't express even a sliver of what I'm feeling because of parents around me. I've tried distracting myself from it, bargaining with it, rationalising it, but it doesn't stop. No matter which way I turn, it's there. It's the most intense when I'm asking up from sleep which is terrible because I sleep a lot to escape my problems, but I wake up with this feeling everytime. Sometimes I do feel better, like this feeling of easy acceptance of everything dawns over me for a moment. But now I'm anxious about that too, I can't let go of my fear and be comfortable because what if they do come to be true and catch me unaware? Anyone else ever experience it?

 

[theDunce]

Always. From the second I wake up my stomach turns to a heavy pit of pain. The closest thing to escape is sleeping as well bearing I don't have dreams that make me feel worse once I wake up. It's a horrible way to live.