I’m scared and sad

[Tonight634]

I feel like my time is coming, maybe in a few months, I'm not sure but I just feel like I'm going to give up…I've lost all hope on ever getting better and I simply can't let myself wake up 10 years from now only to realize that I'm still miserable. The unknown scares me sm it's insane…There is actually nothing holding me here except my cats, and thinking about how one day I'll pet them and leave for the last time makes me so incredibly sad and bitter because I love them so much, they're the best thing about my life ever and I hate life for fucking me over like that so I can't handle it anymore…(btw dw the cats will be taken care of in case I die, mom loves them very much too)

 

[theboy]

I hope you find peace. This world is very dark

 

[Cerulea]

I feel like my time is coming, maybe in a few months, I'm not sure but I just feel like I'm going to give up…I've lost all hope on ever getting better and I simply can't let myself wake up 10 years from now only to realize that I'm still miserable. The unknown scares me sm it's insane…There is actually nothing holding me here except my cats, and thinking about how one day I'll pet them and leave for the last time makes me so incredibly sad and bitter because I love them so much, they're the best thing about my life ever and I hate life for fucking me over like that so I can't handle it anymore…(btw dw the cats will be taken care of in case I die, mom loves them very much too)

I am very sorry to hear how much you're hurting right now. Even in such painful moments, you're still concerned with the well being of your cats. You clearly love them very much and have a loving relationship with them. Perhaps there is some peace to be had in knowing that they will be loved and taken care of should they ever need it. You get to more fully enjoy all the time you spend with them, what a treat.

 

[makethepainstop]

I would say you are a very good soul to worry over your pets. I wish you felt better.

 

[lonelygirl111]

i hope you find peace soon and that your no longer scared. i hope with whatever decisions you make you can be happy some day with your cats by your side whether it's here or there

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such a cruel existence that brings people to this point and I'm sorry that you have suffered so much in life. I wish you peace and freedom.

 

[outrider567]

I feel like my time is coming, maybe in a few months, I'm not sure but I just feel like I'm going to give up…I've lost all hope on ever getting better and I simply can't let myself wake up 10 years from now only to realize that I'm still miserable. The unknown scares me sm it's insane…There is actually nothing holding me here except my cats, and thinking about how one day I'll pet them and leave for the last time makes me so incredibly sad and bitter because I love them so much, they're the best thing about my life ever and I hate life for fucking me over like that so I can't handle it anymore…(btw dw the cats will be taken care of in case I die, mom loves them very much too)

'Nothing holding me here'--My sentiments exactly after my brother passes from his lung cancer---Nothing left in this world that means anything to me anymore, after my girlfriend died, nothing