Hi there, I'm on 75mg bupropion and 20mg fluoxetine. I took it for major depression disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and binge eating disorder. I no longer feel depressed or anxious and my eating disorder is gone. However, I still want to kill myself. Should I increase the dosages of these antidepressants? I just want to stop feeling suicidal and I feel so close to progress. I am unemployed and I just graduated college and it's eating me up inside. I constantly ask myself if this is more my mentality or if this is because I need to change my life circumstances.
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SleeplessSoul
Student
- Apr 10, 2020
- 131
You should probably talk to your doctor/psychiatrist but when I was on fluoxetine it made me feel more suicidal not less. I've changed to mirtazapine and while I still feel suicidal at times I definitely feel it less? Apart from recently when I tried to start weaning off it and a few months ago when I stopped taking it for a couple of weeks.
Susannah
Mage
- Jul 2, 2018
- 534
I don't know the meds you're on, but I would definately not increase. I can, however, relate to my own experience with Venlafaxine and anxiety/depression. Many of my symptoms were relieved "according to the book", but I still didn't wanted to live. Meds made me numb, and I was unable to cry or smile. I felt my life was on hold, but didn't know for how long. That feeling was so devastating and I felt worthless. Luckily I found a good listener (psychiatrist), and that's what you need. Someone to talk to, help you. I really hope you'll cope and get help.
Lots of loveS
Lots of loveS
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I know how you feel. I'm also on Fluoxetine and used to be on Bupropion and although my depression has improved, I still want to die due to certain reasons.
muffin222
Enlightened
- Mar 31, 2020
- 1,187
I had the same experience. When I was taking 150 mg of Wellbutrin a day, my overall depression symptoms improved, but the suicidal thoughts didn't lessen. Weirdly, they actually seemed to increase in frequency. I recently decided to stop taking it altogether because I don't really feel better mentally. It mostly helped me with the physical symptoms (low energy, fatigue, constant crying spells, loss of appetite, etc), which is good, but I don't feel less suicidal after having been on it for a few months.
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AngelGirl
Cat
- May 18, 2019
- 167
I'm on SSRI and lithium. Lithium was my life saver. I first started my SSRI and I started to feel better but I still had suicidal thoughts. My psychiatrist added lithium and now I have no suicidal thoughts. lithium is a mood stabilizer. It is known to be effective specifically against suicidal thoughts.
But I hate the taste and it makes me extremely nauseous for hours.
But I hate the taste and it makes me extremely nauseous for hours.
I see, I might consider lithium, but do you think the nausea overrides lithium's benefits?
AngelGirl
Cat
- May 18, 2019
- 167
Nausea is also dose dependent. I think you can consult with your psychiatrist so you can maximize the benefits while minimizing unwanted side effects. I started taking my meds at night before I go to bed instead of taking them in the morning, So I can sleep through any potential nausea.
For me, taking lithium was absolutely worth it. I used to have depressive episodes with strong urges to CTB when I was just on my SSRI. Once I started SSRI + Lithium, I stoped having them. Just in general, I'm having a better life.
