I'm Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Hold On

[ScarsAndStitches]

I'm not sure how much longer, I can hold on I'm so emotionally, and physically drained. I don't how much longer I can go on before I just break, and end it all. It's getting harder to find reason to keep me going, I don't know what to do anymore

 

[not_a_robot]

I'm sick of holding on. I only want to let go.

 

[AtomicNewt]

I'm not sure how much longer, I can hold on I'm so emotionally, and physically drained. I don't how much longer I can go on before I just break, and end it all. It's getting harder to find reason to keep me going, I don't know what to do anymore

Completely feel for you wish I could offer you some sage advice but my minds blank. I'm in exactly the same place, I mean I know I mental, but feel like I'm on the verge of completely breaking apart and become full on Mad. If that makes any sense?

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

Have you planned how your gonna do it.
I need to plan it perfectly so when I feel I can't go on any longer I can just do it and end it

 

[AtomicNewt]

Have you planned how your gonna do it.
I need to plan it perfectly so when I feel I can't go on any longer I can just do it and end it

Been trying that tricky one of how to make it look like an accident, I've been a lousy enough mother and daughter without adding that to it. Obviously getting drunk and going for a midnight swim would be best, especially as I'm very well known for swimming outside in all weather's and for "liking a drink". However drowning is my biggest phobia, bah. Still won't rule out completely losing it mentally and overcoming that though... Working on a second plan, but will require meticulous planning and my mind is so shot to pieces at the moment :/ but agree with you it needs to be in place otherwise it could be really nasty. Have you worked yours out?

 

[LogicalConclusion]

Same, friend, same...Wish I could make things better for you, and for all of us, really...I agree with others about planning. Currently working out details and finishing up letters/e-mails when I'm not browsing/talking here or playing a game. Also, I've been cutting down on obligations/appts/therapy because I'd rather just do the bare minimum to appear okay while planning and just trying to enjoy my remaining time (have set a few goals for games to sort of keep me going). Unfortunately, I know that's not possible for everyone...keep us posted on how you're doing, maybe talking with people here can help you a bit. Wishing you all the best :)

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

Hanging.

Where

• bathroom (need to check if it can hold your weight) also mum just got settled in to this house. I hope she doesn't feel like she needs to sell it.
• Hotel (need to order a pull up bar and a rope. Need to call a taxi to hotel. Book hotel room. Book for like 2 days. Tell cleaners not to come in.)

When

• maybe next month, I don't know. I wanna die before I turn 20 in September. So July August?

Why

• well... you don't have to worry

How

• blood stops going to my brain, my brain dies. I die. I'm at peace.

 

[memento_mori]

I'm not sure how much longer, I can hold on I'm so emotionally, and physically drained. I don't how much longer I can go on before I just break, and end it all. It's getting harder to find reason to keep me going, I don't know what to do anymore

I've been like this for around 7 months or so now, it's a miracle Im still alive. it's like I'm in my personal little hell. I live every week like it's my last

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

I've been like this for around 7 months or so now, it's a miracle Im still alive. it's like I'm in my personal little hell. I live every week like it's my last

How you gonna do it? What's your method

 

[memento_mori]

How you gonna do it? What's your method

probably sn
seems most reliable

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm not sure how much longer, I can hold on I'm so emotionally, and physically drained. I don't how much longer I can go on before I just break, and end it all. It's getting harder to find reason to keep me going, I don't know what to do anymore

I feel the same … I'm barely holding it together. Work is horrible and even when I'm not at work, Life isn't good either.
Sometimes when I'm in my car driving home from work … I just scream out loud. (With the windows closed)

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm sick of holding on. I only want to let go.

I'm hoping I will have the guts to do it before I have to go through another winter.

 

[LogicalConclusion]

I'm hoping I will have the guts to do it before I have to go through another winter.

I don't think I can go through another winter either... Hugs to you friend

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I don't think I can go through another winter either... Hugs to you friend

I feel your pain... I hate winter. I didn't think I would be here for the last one … but here I am.