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spacefreightergirl

spacefreightergirl

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May 27, 2026
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I don't want to write. I don't want to sing. I don't want to read or listen to music – I don't really care about someone else's thoughts, whatever they are. I don't really want to do anything at all. Any food sounds as bland and boring as the next. Every time I wake up and I realize I have to go through another day I feel a sense of dread drowning me, I would keep my eyes closed forever if I could. I don't want to do anything now and I don't want to achieve anything in the future. I know I will never accomplish anything because my brain wasn't made for that. I wish I could just rot into my bed.
 
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May 16, 2026
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You've found a place where a lot of people more or less know how you feel and may be feeling the same themselves. Perhaps it helps to be in like-minded company at least. I've no idea. Have never found much at all that allows me to feel anything other than a weird sort of painful emptiness.
 
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