bloodyknuckles
bad things
- Aug 14, 2024
- 6
every time i hangout with him till i move in with him i get agitated and leave early. theyre starting to really get on my nerves but i really have no other option cause were both broke and our leases both end on the 31st.
i wouldnt really have anyone ele to live with anyway, and if i were to live on my own my entire paycheck would go to rent and id have absolutely no money for anything else. we would both pay half our paychecks to live here which is fine by me cause at least we can manage it but holy shit ive been around them too much and i kinda have to be because were looking for places and such but really i dont wanna be around them at all. i have nobody else besides him but im so bitter that im pushing him away too. i really hate what ive become, a bitter grouch who does nothing but cry and feel sorry for himself. honestly i dont even deserve a house, a roof over my head or nothing. i deserve to rot on the streets with heroin in my veins. i hate this. i wouldnt be so damn bitter if i could function properly. i WANT to function and live a normal life. ive been trying MY WHOLE LIFE to be normal but i cant do anything about it. i cant get therapy no matter how many times i try and how many organizations i reach out to i cant do anything my meds barely work my chronic fatigue has no cure and im too much of a pussy to kill myself.
i wanna sleep some more, bye
i wouldnt really have anyone ele to live with anyway, and if i were to live on my own my entire paycheck would go to rent and id have absolutely no money for anything else. we would both pay half our paychecks to live here which is fine by me cause at least we can manage it but holy shit ive been around them too much and i kinda have to be because were looking for places and such but really i dont wanna be around them at all. i have nobody else besides him but im so bitter that im pushing him away too. i really hate what ive become, a bitter grouch who does nothing but cry and feel sorry for himself. honestly i dont even deserve a house, a roof over my head or nothing. i deserve to rot on the streets with heroin in my veins. i hate this. i wouldnt be so damn bitter if i could function properly. i WANT to function and live a normal life. ive been trying MY WHOLE LIFE to be normal but i cant do anything about it. i cant get therapy no matter how many times i try and how many organizations i reach out to i cant do anything my meds barely work my chronic fatigue has no cure and im too much of a pussy to kill myself.
i wanna sleep some more, bye
