trying ungracefully
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- Jun 11, 2025
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This is a happy accomplishment type of thing.
But I volunteered again today and realized I can start a job now. Not going to lie I puked this morning from a mixture of anxiety, hunger (hard to eat with anxiety), and nicotine lol. I wanted to cancel it but I pushed through, I didn't even need my PRN.
I feel confident in taking the bus, even though today I got on the wrong bus lol, and even though I don't feel like doing stuff I can do it. And once I started it actually felt good to pass time and have something to do. Usually I'm so bored on the verge of going crazy because I've been watching TikTok for 6 hours. But the tasks were nice. I folded and put away laundry, started sorting donations but they took me off that because I think I was doing bad lol, and washed a bunch of dishes and toys. It took an hour and I left early because they were closing since there was nothing to do really.
I have to lie on my resume and say I was dog walking until 2025 and then say I was volunteering longer than I have been. My brother said they never check, he put two community service things on his resume and got many interviews and then a job.
So I am going to start fixing up my resume and then next time I go to my exposure group I am going to put applications in. I want to procrastinate with it because even though I want to work I don't want to work the rest of my life at the same time. I'm excited for the future though and I feel so hopefully.
This shit makes me feel like I am manic. Time will tell but if it is mania I am riding it out until I get a job and have money.
But I volunteered again today and realized I can start a job now. Not going to lie I puked this morning from a mixture of anxiety, hunger (hard to eat with anxiety), and nicotine lol. I wanted to cancel it but I pushed through, I didn't even need my PRN.
I feel confident in taking the bus, even though today I got on the wrong bus lol, and even though I don't feel like doing stuff I can do it. And once I started it actually felt good to pass time and have something to do. Usually I'm so bored on the verge of going crazy because I've been watching TikTok for 6 hours. But the tasks were nice. I folded and put away laundry, started sorting donations but they took me off that because I think I was doing bad lol, and washed a bunch of dishes and toys. It took an hour and I left early because they were closing since there was nothing to do really.
I have to lie on my resume and say I was dog walking until 2025 and then say I was volunteering longer than I have been. My brother said they never check, he put two community service things on his resume and got many interviews and then a job.
So I am going to start fixing up my resume and then next time I go to my exposure group I am going to put applications in. I want to procrastinate with it because even though I want to work I don't want to work the rest of my life at the same time. I'm excited for the future though and I feel so hopefully.
This shit makes me feel like I am manic. Time will tell but if it is mania I am riding it out until I get a job and have money.
what kind of community service did your brother "do"? I have a lot of anxiety about being able to secure future employment, it's so uncertain to me what employers look for in candidates...
