I'm looking forward to not being here

[BipolarGuy]

I'm waiting for my delivery.
Hopefully it will come within the next week.

I will not be able to hold on for weeks on end once I receive it through the post, and I still need to get my butt in gear and start sorting a few things out.
I probably won't be able to hold on for any longer than a few days maximum after receiving it.
So the thought that things may happen for me within the next 2 weeks means this is getting real for me.

I'll tell people in advance when I plan to do it, and I'll send a pm to those I have been Pm'ing (and possibly also to the people 'following' me) so you know in advance.

I just feel like I'd like things to end.

I've tried my best to be a good person throughout my life.
Unfortunately the world is not kind to those with a warm heart.

 

[LonelyNick]

I hope you find your peace. Waiting is the wrist party but it'll go fast!! It's your last stretch, you're almost there!

 

[Passerby]

Well, I for one am not looking forward to you not being here.

You are a credit to this forum, I see all the help & advice you give members in crisis, it doesn't go unnoticed.

Also, you know what you are talking about and you're wording is powerful & meaningful, you will go on to help many members of this forum I believe, but the number one priority for yourself should be you, I generally hope life somehow works out for you.

My love anyways

 

[rt1989526]

Same here. I cannot take much more of being "alive". I really hope the SN method works for us my friend.

 

[TheQ22]

I'll be very sad when you leave, but I'm in the same boat so I totally get it. Even though I have kids and don't want them to be tarnished with the stigma of a dad who killed himself, I just can't stand to be here any more.

 

[checkouttime]

I probably won't be able to hold on for any longer than a few days maximum after receiving it.

I thought i would receive mine and drink it straight away!! i'm not saying you won't and i hope it is easy for you to 'just do it' like nike says!!

i already told you why i haven't took mine yet though, your circumstances are different.

 

[Deafsn0w]

I'm waiting for my delivery.
Hopefully it will come within the next week.

I will not be able to hold on for weeks on end once I receive it through the post, and I still need to get my butt in gear and start sorting a few things out.
I probably won't be able to hold on for any longer than a few days maximum after receiving it.
So the thought that things may happen for me within the next 2 weeks means this is getting real for me.

I'll tell people in advance when I plan to do it, and I'll send a pm to those I have been Pm'ing (and possibly also to the people 'following' me) so you know in advance.

I just feel like I'd like things to end.

I've tried my best to be a good person throughout my life.
Unfortunately the world is not kind to those with a warm heart.

What is your method, if you don't mind me asking?

You're one of the greatest members here and you seem like a nice guy to talk to. I hope you find peace. Of course I will miss you, but I will also leave this planet as soon as I get supplies for the exit bag method.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Maybe next week we'll take the bus at the same time, that would be great. I would miss you if you walked in front of me because you stand up for your opinion.

If I do reach the finish line first, I will reserve two seats at the bar so that we can continue our discussions.

If you want too

 

[AvaAdore]

I'm waiting for my delivery.
Hopefully it will come within the next week.

I will not be able to hold on for weeks on end once I receive it through the post, and I still need to get my butt in gear and start sorting a few things out.
I probably won't be able to hold on for any longer than a few days maximum after receiving it.
So the thought that things may happen for me within the next 2 weeks means this is getting real for me.

I'll tell people in advance when I plan to do it, and I'll send a pm to those I have been Pm'ing (and possibly also to the people 'following' me) so you know in advance.

I just feel like I'd like things to end.

I've tried my best to be a good person throughout my life.
Unfortunately the world is not kind to those with a warm heart.

Most people don't care, that's true but it's not fair to say the whole world was not kind to you.
I don't remember reading any of your other posts. What brought you to this decision?

 

[BipolarGuy]

Most people don't care, that's true but it's not fair to say the whole world was not kind to you.
I don't remember reading any of your other posts. What brought you to this decision?

I don't understand where you're coming from. I didn't say the "whole world" had been unkind to me.

 

[asani]

Safe travels, friend. I hope you find your peace.

 

[Spitfire]

If you decided to wait a little while longer after receiving it, that is cool. I would not mind seeing you around here for a bit more..

I bet it sure is a good feeling to know there is a very "real" possibility to find relief soon, at your time of choosing.

I am happy for you.