I'm killing myself in a few hours.

[Gaybonez]

I have decided to go. I've wiped everything including my phone, but I'm using my phone again to post on. My last post covers everything. I appreciate you guys for everything. You were here for me back in 2019 under a different account (No, I'm not ban evading. Don't delete my post, mods.) when I was suicidal and you're here for me now.

 

[Wrennie]

I'm sorry that it looks as though you've made your final decision. But I do understand, as I'm getting closer too.

I truly hope that there's no suffering involved, and please know that there's never any shame in the event that you don't follow through with an attempt (you will always be welcomed back with open arms ).

 

[Cats26]

Sending you love

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm sorry that it looks as though you've made your final decision. But I do understand, as I'm getting closer too.

I truly hope that there's no suffering involved, and please know that there's never any shame in the event that you don't follow through with an attempt (you will always be welcomed back with open arms ).

There's someone who agreed to be with me up until I'm ready to go, but they can't handle being there when I drink the SN. I'll be with you guys until I'm about to pass out.

Wrennie. If it's not too much, would you mind staying up for me? I'll be gone within 3 hours. I would appreciate you being here. I know it's a lot for a stranger to ask though. Either way, thank you so much for your time. I wish you peace in your journey too.

Sending you love

Thank you

 

[Wrennie]

There's someone who agreed to be with me up until I'm ready to go, but they can't handle being there when I drink the SN. I'll be with you guys until I'm about to pass out.

Wrennie. If it's not too much, would you mind staying up for me? I'll be gone within 3 hours. I would appreciate you being here. I know it's a lot for a stranger to ask though. Either way, thank you so much for your time. I wish you peace in your journey too.

Thank you

Sure, I'll stay with you. I'm just sitting in bed browsing the forums. I can only imagine how isolating and terrifying this whole ordeal must feel for you, and nobody deserves to be made to feel alone leading up to their final moments. If there's anything you'd like to talk about in particular, just let me know.

 

[Gaybonez]

Sure, I'll stay with you. I'm just sitting in bed browsing the forums. I can only imagine how isolating and terrifying this whole ordeal must feel for you, and nobody deserves to be made to feel alone leading up to their final moments. If there's anything you'd like to talk about in particular, just let me know.

I'm a bit scared, but I have a loved one for me right now. I'm ready to leave though. I refuse to continue. I appreciate you so much. I'm going to start the meto and odan in a few minutes.

 

[Wrennie]

I'm a bit scared, but I have a loved one for me right now. I'm ready to leave though. I refuse to continue. I appreciate you so much. I'm going to start the meto and odan in a few minutes.

I'm grateful that you have a cherished loved one by your side.

I wish they could stay with you so you wouldn't have to endure this on your own, but I also understand the unfortunate reasoning as for why they can't.

In an ideal world, we'd all be able to leave peacefully & surrounded by loved ones at a time of our choosing.

 

[Foresight]

You have a loved one until the time comes? That's good to hear. Much love, I hope the night is comfortable for you.

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm grateful that you have a cherished loved one by your side.

I wish they could stay with you so you wouldn't have to endure this on your own, but I also understand the unfortunate reasoning as for why they can't.

In an ideal world, we'd all be able to leave peacefully & surrounded by loved ones at a time of our choosing.

thank you so much. You have no idea what this means to me.

 

[medicinenightmares]

I'm glad you have someone with you to ease the stress of leaving even just a little. I hope you find peace & comfort.

 

[Wrennie]

thank you so much. You have no idea what this means to me.

I'm grateful if I'm able to provide any kind of benefit whatsoever, but I genuinely wish I could do so much more to help you.

People really don't understand the toll that physical illness can take on a person. I'm so sorry that yours has proven to be so unbearable that you're ready to CTB as a result. Life just isn't remotely fair. A person could have been blessed with everything and yet have it all taken away in an instant.

You didn't deserve what happened to you, and you don't deserve the pain that you're going through right now. I wish there were a miracle cure of some kind, but with my experience with the medical profession I know how hopeless things can seem.

 

[someonelse]

There's someone who agreed to be with me up until I'm ready to go, but they can't handle being there when I drink the SN. I'll be with you guys until I'm about to pass out.

Wrennie. If it's not too much, would you mind staying up for me? I'll be gone within 3 hours. I would appreciate you being here. I know it's a lot for a stranger to ask though. Either way, thank you so much for your time. I wish you peace in your journey too.

Thank you

I'm glad you have someone with you. That is a good friend. I am ctb with SN on Saturday. I'm starting to take my anti emetic tomorrow morning. I'm scared too and I hope you can take comfort in knowing we're here for you. Whatever happens, I hope you find peace and know you have been loved here on earth.

 

[occamsrazor]

There's someone who agreed to be with me up until I'm ready to go, but they can't handle being there when I drink the SN. I'll be with you guys until I'm about to pass out.

Wrennie. If it's not too much, would you mind staying up for me? I'll be gone within 3 hours. I would appreciate you being here. I know it's a lot for a stranger to ask though. Either way, thank you so much for your time. I wish you peace in your journey too.

Thank you

not to barge on your wishes but I'd be honored to stay up with you as well. with both of you. Like wrennie I'll be up and on ss. may you find tranquillity and warmth at your destination

 

[Gaybonez]

not to barge on your wishes but I'd be honored to stay up with you as well. with both of you. Like wrennie I'll be up and on ss. may you find tranquillity and warmth at your destination

Nah, fam. Fuck yea! The more the merrier lol. I'm kidding, but yea I would appreciate it. I took the meto and a benzo because I'm anxious as fuck right now. I'll be taking the painkillers, propanolol, and odansetron in the last hour.


And no worries, I have a small small sip of champagne to wash it down with. I won't die miserable lol

 

[angiegirl30]

You are in my thoughts

 

[occamsrazor]

Nah, fam. Fuck yea! The more the merrier lol. I'm kidding, but yea I would appreciate it. I took the meto and a benzo because I'm anxious as fuck right now. I'll be taking the painkillers, propanolol, and odansetron in the last hour.


And no worries, I have a small small sip of champagne to wash it down with. I won't die miserable lol

Okay you can count on me. The world didn't take the time to see the treasure that you are

 

[mineko]

I'm really sorry to hear about your suffering. I wish you courage and peace.

 

[Wrennie]

Okay you can count on me. The world didn't take the time to see the treasure that you are

I know, right? So many of the people I encounter on this website remain so kind in spite of having been beaten down by this world. It's unbelievably tragic.

 

[someonelse]

Nah, fam. Fuck yea! The more the merrier lol. I'm kidding, but yea I would appreciate it. I took the meto and a benzo because I'm anxious as fuck right now. I'll be taking the painkillers, propanolol, and odansetron in the last hour.


And no worries, I have a small small sip of champagne to wash it down with. I won't die

Can you tell us what the SN experience is like? I'm taking mine in two days and am anxious. It would be nice to know your experience if you feel up for sharing it.

 

[Kristicide]

I have decided to go. I've wiped everything including my phone, but I'm using my phone again to post on. My last post covers everything. I appreciate you guys for everything. You were here for me back in 2019 under a different account (No, I'm not ban evading. Don't delete my post, mods.) when I was suicidal and you're here for me now.

Much respect for you. And frankly jealous cause I want to do the same rn. Hope you fade off with peace and catch you on the other side (or maybe not if there isn't one). ❤

 

[Somber]

I'm sorry you find yourself in this position, but am glad you are with someone who cares about you.

Know that you are always welcome here no matter what happens. I hope you may find peace.

if you catch the bus, save us a seat.

 

[Gaybonez]

I'm sorry you find yourself in this position, but am glad you are with someone who cares about you.

Know that you are always welcome here no matter what happens. I hope you may find peace.

if you catch the bus, save us a seat.

Thank you. I only have one more dose of onadestron and then the antacids. I'm leaving in about an hour

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace.
Sorry that it's come to this. Sorry I didn't get to know you sooner. There are so many on here that I don't get to talk to.
My memory isn't the best either. So if I did and forgot I apologise.
Anyway I hope everything goes well. Giving you hugs cuz that's all I can do.

 

[Rob1984]

Thank you. I only have one more dose of onadestron and then the antacids. I'm leaving in about an hour

I'm sorry you've suffered so much that it's led you to this. If you truly ctb tonight, I hope it's with as little pain and suffering, since you've had enough as it is. Sending lots of love your way, and I really really hope you find peace <3

 

[Endtimes1]

Is there really no way to keep you here?

 

[occamsrazor]

I know, right? So many of the people I encounter on this website remain so kind in spite of having been beaten down by this world. It's unbelievably tragic.

Yes it's true. I couldn't agree more

 

[Gaybonez]

I made the drink. I'm leaving in 15-30 minutes. Anyone know how long it can be in water before it's not effective?

 

[SovietSuicide]

Sounds like you were well prepared, I hope mine will be as smooth as yours, all the best.

 

[Gaybonez]

Sounds like you were well prepared, I hope mine will be as smooth as yours, all the best.

Damn right. This is the end.
This is the song I chose to listen to for my death if anyone wants to give it a try

 

[Rob1984]

Damn right. This is the end.

Did you do anything special these last couple days (or today)? If not, that's totally okay and understandable. Just want to know :)