I'm just waiting for SN to arrive

[vita min]

I'm already getting very loose with my money. I don't have much vices anyways, like drugs or anything. So I've just been spending my money on takeout food mostly. No job either. I don't need to watch my weight or my wallet anymore. I've already decided I'm not leaving notes. My death isn't going to be justifiable to anyone I know and I've been on suicide watch before so my only concern is doing it cleanly. It sucks that no matter how you go you have to leave behind a corpse for someone else to find. I have a few ideas but no matter what there's a risk of someone being traumatized. I want to limit the harm I do on the way out.

 

[insanedoomer]

yeah what a shame to let a corpse behind , i wont leave a note for a world like this , it justify itself .

 

[noxin]

I'm the same in that I wish I didn't have to leave a corpse behind, and that because I feel like I'm getting close I'm also just spending my money on takeaway.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it is an unpleasant thought, leaving a corpse behind, I wish I could just disappear from this world. At the same time I think it doesn't matter as I will no longer be alive by that point, but still I do not want others to see it.

 

[xBrialesana]

I relate to this a lot. I hope you are able to spend your time in peace

 

[Smily]

Kinda living the same way right now. Just waiting on the source to resupply SN(gladly I'll just have to go and pick up since they are in my city), weights delivery and other stuff needed to run tests to confirm purity of SN. Hopefully couple more weeks and I can CTB. But for now, just actually enjoying what I can to the fullest. Interesting how imminent death makes you actually enjoy life. Makes you free.

 

[checkouttime]

Kinda living the same way right now. Just waiting on the source to resupply SN(gladly I'll just have to go and pick up since they are in my city), weights delivery and other stuff needed to run tests to confirm purity of SN. Hopefully couple more weeks and I can CTB. But for now, just actually enjoying what I can to the fullest. Interesting how imminent death makes you actually enjoy life. Makes you free.

I thought SN was really hard to get nowadays. doesn't seem too hard if you can just go and pick it up lol.

 

[Smily]

I thought SN was really hard to get nowadays. doesn't seem too hard if you can just go and pick it up lol.

Yeah well I had to spent a lot of time to find that source. It's not like it's just magically appeared out of nowhere.

 

[checkouttime]

Yeah well I had to spent a lot of time to find that source. It's not like it's just magically appeared out of nowhere.

yeah but if its as easy as "gladly I'll just have to go and pick up since they are in my city)" i would think that might give people encouragement of just how easy it can be!!!! i'm sure other people can spend time to find the source just like you did