jawdropped123
Experienced
- Mar 19, 2022
- 219
I'm feeling incredibly frustrated and honestly, quite shaken by an experience I had with my psychiatrist this morning. We haven't been working together for very long, but I was really taken aback by how things were handled. Over the past few years, I've seen my fair share of mental health professionals, and while some weren't a great fit, this felt different.
I know I've been resistant to one of the medications prescribed, saying it doesn't make me feel good and doesn't seem to be helping. I also acknowledge that I was in a very emotional state when I declined another medication that was suggested. And yes, I even asked for a specific anxiety medication. However, I was just given a prescription for a large quantity of this medication – sixty pills – while I also have other sedating medications at home and a recent history of a serious overdose just a couple of months ago.
To be given such a significant amount of a medication known to be misused, especially given my background, feels incredibly irresponsible. I'm honestly struggling to process it and feel a lot of anger. This has really broken the professional trust I was starting to build.
It reminds me of when I was younger and went to my family doctor complaining of insomnia. They simply told me to put my phone away at night and handed me a prescription for a highly addictive anxiety medication. That started a period where I was taking very high doses, just asking for more refills and getting them without much question. Thankfully, I'm no longer on that medication due to some difficult side effects. I'm aware that sometimes the standard of care can vary, but I didn't expect this.
This morning, I was asked what I would have preferred in a certain situation. Well, in this instance, I would have preferred to receive my usual medication, perhaps with a small amount of the anxiety medication for immediate use, and a follow-up appointment scheduled. Even though I wouldn't have been completely happy, that would have felt much more responsible and professional, especially when I was feeling so vulnerable. I'm not trying to dictate how someone should do their job, though.
I also recognize that I can be a challenging patient, but it often feels like when you're navigating therapy alone, without family or friends involved, you can be treated differently by healthcare professionals. It's also difficult because there isn't really anyone in my life I feel I can confide in about situations like this.
I know these medications aren't immediately life-threatening, but they can certainly make me unwell and potentially cause longer-term health issues. While I understand I bear some responsibility for my choices, I want to be clear that if something goes wrong, I won't be the only one accountable. Any advice?
I know I've been resistant to one of the medications prescribed, saying it doesn't make me feel good and doesn't seem to be helping. I also acknowledge that I was in a very emotional state when I declined another medication that was suggested. And yes, I even asked for a specific anxiety medication. However, I was just given a prescription for a large quantity of this medication – sixty pills – while I also have other sedating medications at home and a recent history of a serious overdose just a couple of months ago.
To be given such a significant amount of a medication known to be misused, especially given my background, feels incredibly irresponsible. I'm honestly struggling to process it and feel a lot of anger. This has really broken the professional trust I was starting to build.
It reminds me of when I was younger and went to my family doctor complaining of insomnia. They simply told me to put my phone away at night and handed me a prescription for a highly addictive anxiety medication. That started a period where I was taking very high doses, just asking for more refills and getting them without much question. Thankfully, I'm no longer on that medication due to some difficult side effects. I'm aware that sometimes the standard of care can vary, but I didn't expect this.
This morning, I was asked what I would have preferred in a certain situation. Well, in this instance, I would have preferred to receive my usual medication, perhaps with a small amount of the anxiety medication for immediate use, and a follow-up appointment scheduled. Even though I wouldn't have been completely happy, that would have felt much more responsible and professional, especially when I was feeling so vulnerable. I'm not trying to dictate how someone should do their job, though.
I also recognize that I can be a challenging patient, but it often feels like when you're navigating therapy alone, without family or friends involved, you can be treated differently by healthcare professionals. It's also difficult because there isn't really anyone in my life I feel I can confide in about situations like this.
I know these medications aren't immediately life-threatening, but they can certainly make me unwell and potentially cause longer-term health issues. While I understand I bear some responsibility for my choices, I want to be clear that if something goes wrong, I won't be the only one accountable. Any advice?
