I'm Hurting

[ixkitty]

I am hurting so bad. I haven't bathed in a week. I can barely get up to feed my cats. I haven't eaten. I haven't had anything to drink. I haven't had my meds, and frankly I'm tired of taking them. I've googled so many potential cocktails and I'm still not sure what else I can do. I can't choke myself out. I can't drown myself. I'm too much of a fucking coward to shoot myself no matter how many times I dry fire it into my brain. No matter how much I practice I can't... and It makes me hate myself even more. I want to just walk on train tracks but there's not one close enough... I can't quit work... I'm afraid to... I can't just buy the pill outright... because for some god forsaken reason I still feel the urge to save money just in case... what's wrong with me, because I don't know.

 

[clown_17]

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly. Sometimes we're just trapped unable to live but unable to die. It's awful

 

[ixkitty]

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly. Sometimes we're just trapped unable to live but unable to die. It's awful

I've cried for 2 days straight and haven't left the house.. it is torture.

 

[jimmy7754]

Hi if you want to pm me and chat I'm okay with that. I'm not doing well either.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. Suicide really is so difficult, more than anything I wish it was easier to exit. Everyday it hurts me that it is so hard to leave this world. I wish I was never born in the first place. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[ixkitty]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. Suicide really is so difficult, more than anything I wish it was easier to exit. Everyday it hurts me that it is so hard to leave this world. I wish I was never born in the first place. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

I thank you.