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here_for_now

is this by design?
Jan 27, 2025
174
I'm going to be alone, I don't want friends or love I'm a disgusting creature. Save enough money to leave my brother then in a few months near the end of year ctb and reach Paradise.

I don't want to live anymore. Living is a burden. I will by the end of this year that's my ctb date
 
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Jamesbond

Student
May 27, 2020
126
you're not a disgusting creature(unless you've murdered someone or something mad like that)! You're a human being just like most of us on here! I'm alone by choice I guess but choices my brain makes that i wish I could switch off, but i still miss love, i don't believe anyone who says they don't want to feel loved. I love you until you give me a reason not to!

Feeling you on the burden thing though 100% you mind me asking how old you are? I'm 42 almost 43 now
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
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Why do you think you're disgusting?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Paragon
Nov 12, 2025
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Sorry to hear. I've already done this for the past almost year. Spending time alone saying goodbye to life while I prepare to CTB.
 
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shaggy_dooo

My cozy place
Jan 26, 2026
57
Iam isolated and been for years now i cant be with people i am too mentally ill and ive lost hope of making it out i just chill in my room by myself but if it was up to me i would've left long time ago.
 
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tomame

forlorn 💔
Dec 28, 2025
160
i would love to live in isolation but can't afford too 😭
 
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