I am new to this forum and i send love to everyone in it and hope everyone finds peace. I plan on CTB this Saturday waiting for my rope to come in the mail i was looking on the hanging guide and got the best preferred rope with is actually used for sexual activities lol but it will do wish me luck i am honestly not afraid maybe its because i believe there is life after death im just tired of this life i have not been abused i have a good family but i feel like a failure after loosing all my money in the stock market i just feel like it my time i wish you all the best.
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RileyTanaka
ill / failure
- Mar 20, 2020
- 264
Thanks for sharing your story with us.
I'm sorry for the tragic loss you've had to deal with financially. You're certainly not the only one, especially with world markets being so unstable right now. Just curious, but how long have you been contemplating ending your life? Is this something you're absolutely sure you want to do? I don't want to cast doubt in your mind, but I can't help but wonder if your situation might be salvageable. Do you have other streams of income to survive off of? Are there other circumstances that are factoring into your decision? Again, not here to offload judgement, I'm just curious. In the end, your decision is your own of course.
Thanks for your reply, I sacrificed everything to be a stock trader and then i lost it all also i am depressed all the time and suicide has become a obsession i feel like a failure that i let my family down and there is more but is to much to type thank you for your caring.
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
I would also have to ask you if have exhausted all other options to be happy? I am sorry about the failure in stock trading, but at least you tried. It gave you some invaluable life experience you can use further in your life. Maybe you can try getting another job and maybe try therapy/meds that will help you? I am sure you have not let your family down. Failing the stock market especially in the current global situation is not unusual and you are not to be blamed for that.i just feel like i failed them because i lost all there money and i dropped out of highschool to do it its the only thing that makes me happy
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
You have not let them down. They knew that trading is not 100% guaranteed. It's good that you did what makes you happy and you will still be able to do it. Many traders and successful people have not succeeded from their first try. But if you have passion for this you should not let it die away. Work something else, maybe even continue going to school and try again when you have money. There is still time and options for you. Don't give up!
Same here with regards to lost a lot of money in investments. Unfortunately I also lost other people's money and even peoples money thats close to me.
Car and home lost. Tried to get back up but it seems useless.
Feel like a massive failure and know exactly how you feel. I tried hanging 3 times but SI kicked in so hard. Then I failed at carbon monoxide method, room was to big...
Good luck to you!!Well My rope just came in time to CTB i hope you all find peace ill see you all on the other side.
I'm sorry you feel you should CTB. I wish you peace in whatever you decide to do.
thank you
Amnesty
Suicidal Cheesecake
- Jun 2, 2020
- 172
I hope I am not late...yet if I am I hope you found peace already. If I am not then you you will find peace.Damn... So hard to hang yourself. Just tried another 3 times. It's 10:30pm here. My heart starts racing super fast. Little bit of pins and needles in the face but can't get past it. Had about 7 beers to calm me but still can't do it.Similar threads
