I'm going to ask my doc to take me off antidepressants

[yowai]

I've been curious for a long time what would it be like to live without these pills again. I started taking them 7 years ago when I was 18 or maybe a little earlier, I was in a horrible state back then and barely functioning so I'm scared of going back to that if I quit. But they're not even doing much to me anymore, I don't know if it's because I messed up my brain chemistry or something after becoming an addict, even when I was completely sober for half a year they weren't helping at all. I got seriously suicidal again, and recently I tried using psylocybin mushrooms looking for some breakthough but surprise, they didn't work at all because apparently ssris weaken the trip or block it altogether That was the last straw for me. I just need to try something different, I'm tired of being such a mess, I gotta get something more out of this life before I die. My worst nightmare is staying the way way I am right now for the rest of my life. Anyway, wish me luck I guess and I'm wondering if anyone else here has been in that kind of situation and what it turned out like for them

 

[LoveroftheDark]

i used to think that way too, then i tried not taking them and my condition got rapidly worse, and honestly, its up to your psych doctor to regulate them and i could only trust her as someone who's mind keep changing. right now i'm still salty that i have to take them, but i try to look at it as like... necessary medication for health, because your mind is still an organ that needs proper chemical balance and stuff.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Last year I made the decision to quit my medication by myself - antidepressants and antipsychotics. I felt like they were doing nothing to me besides giving me side effects that affected my life. The withdrawal was a bitch as I got off them by myself instead of properly as advised by a psychiatrist, but after several weeks I was feeling normal. Important to note though, I had spent several years without them. I only started taking them again because I was acutely suicidal and started having psychosis-like symptoms so I took them for a bit more than half a year and decided to stop taking them when my psychosis-like symptoms were gone and I wasn't nearly as suicidal.
I've also never taken drugs in my life so don't know if that would have changed something in this process.

I used to really believe in therapy and medication, several years ago, but that changed quite a bit so that's also a reason why I stopped and I'm not looking at taking them again ever, if I can avoid it.