Im giving up on looking for people to talk to

[Quantum_Marten0302]

Everyone is either very dry and rarely or never asks me questions forcing me to carry the convos until i stop and they end or isnt able to talk as often as i desire and only messages me once every few days. I need someone like me who is willing to talk for hours every day. I dont understand it. They claim they are like me, without friends or family to talk to and without any life other than their copes. Am i the only human craving connection this much? And if it goes well it always ends in a few weeks seemingly. The one connection I had that got closest to this left me claiming they were very busy, slowly replied less and less then finally stopped, after we have shared images of eachother, stuff we were doing daily and so many private things, discussing everything from childhood trauma to daily activities and everything else, why? I was thinking of this regarding real life connections and especially romantic ones aswell. I dont think i will ever be able to find a romantic partner due to this since I would want to talk and be around them every day so even if I find someone it will likely end quickly, its pointless. I genuinely cant enjoy anything due to this. I try to cope by listening to music, playing videogames, watching tv, working out, going on walks etc. but all of it feels meaningless without having someone to share it with so there is no enjoyment. Ive went my whole life without it so ill get used to it again but its crazy how just these short superficial connections gave me huge hope and motivation for everything. I suddenly had motivation to get up from bed after waking up, eat consistently, go outside more often, look for work etc. If i had this much motivation every day life would be amazing but it is what it is

 

[Quantum_Marten0302]

The last part of your posts denotes that you have the strength to be what you want to be. Maybe, delve into it. How about taking babysteps- trying one thing a day.

I want to be a person that has someone to talk to

 

[Quantum_Marten0302]

You will, trust me. Like I said, baby steps. And you have just taken one - you are talking to me.

What exactly is the point of this comment? you have no way of knowing if i will or not so i most definitely dont trust you. do you genuinely believe this is giving me some kind of motivation? who are you signaling your virtue to? or are you trying to bait me into saying something offensive so you can then say that my expression is the reason im alone? something else?

 

[behindtheveil]

What exactly is the point of this comment? you have no way of knowing if i will or not so i most definitely dont trust you. do you genuinely believe this is giving me some kind of motivation? who are you signaling your virtue to? or are you trying to bait me into saying something offensive so you can then say that my expression is the reason im alone? something else?

Wow, are you serious? I never asked you to trust me like I am asking something for you. Just like you I genuinely wrote what I felt from reading your words. And I am not signaling any virtue or bait you. If anything, ...nah forget it. You want me to delete the comment , let me know.

 

[Crow_88]

Hey you can talk to me if you want!