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kelimackie

kelimackie

bleh
Sep 22, 2023
128
I feel like I'm doing better. I don't want to kill myself anymore, but I also don't care about death.

I can feel happiness, and it's not all the time like I thought normal people feel. I don't obsesse about the clock anymore, wanting the days to end as soon as they start.

I feel free of worrying about life, I'm okay, happy even, but I still worry about death.

The only thing that bothers me is what happens when I die, and how old I'd be when that happens.

I smoke nicotine and eat instant noodles in the hope that I get some type of cancer in the future to prevent me from getting old. That I can't discuss with anyone except on this website.
 
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Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
Good for you!
I hope it continues and if it dips, you get to bounce back.
 
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Dliena

Dliena

𝚂𝚂 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝙽𝚘. 43,53?
Dec 22, 2023
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Nice to hear! And wishing you all the well with whatever outcome is beneficial.
 
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