I'm fucking done

[torturedbylife]

I'm tired of this bitch that is my mother who is always rude to me and making my life even more nightmarish than it is for her petty and shitty reasons and desire to argue and fuck up the lives of mine and others in the family. I'm tired of being shouted at every morning from the first moment like it's my fault that bitch brought me in this world without my consent. WITHOUT MY CONSENT! AND I STILL HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT? I have no one. I'm so done. I've my mind made up. I'll jump. But I'm so desperate right now that I won't wait anymore for the lock down to be over so the buildings will reopen. I'll jump from my window. I live on the 3rd floor. I know it's not effective from this floor but I can't anymore. I'm too desperate. I want to escape. I can't resist anymore.

 

[Arrow]

like it's my fault that bitch brought me in this world without my consent. WITHOUT MY CONSENT!

true. i'm of the belief that having children is objectively immoral as you are subjecting another human to existence in a world full of pain and suffering against their will.

 

[Angel1234]

I wish i was on the 3rd floor I'm not even on the second, so I can't even try if I wanted, I've thought of so many ways but it looks like the way I'm going for is overdose and cutting till I bleed out, I'm just waiting for the perfect time, and to be done with school, then I will kill myself and finally be gone from this torture we call life

 

[torturedbylife]

I wish i was on the 3rd floor I'm not even on the second, so I can't even try if I wanted, I've thought of so many ways but it looks like the way I'm going for is overdose and cutting till I bleed out, I'm just waiting for the perfect time, and to be done with school, then I will kill myself and finally be gone from this torture we call life

Cutting is pretty difficult you have to cut like really deep,it hurts even on the surface. What will you overdose with? I live in the capital city so there are plenty of high buildings or blocks of flats with more than 7 floors. I tried partial hanging like 3 times but it didn't work so I'm resorting to jumping.

 

[Kumachan]

Yea hated my mother all my life totally can relate

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Jumping from the third floor is probably more likely to result in survival with horrific injury. You say you can't wait, but do you really want to make matters even worse? I hope you make the decision that's right for you and I'm sorry that you feel so desperate.

 

[plough22]

Don't jump from third floor, chances are you will not ctb. Wait and see is my advice to you. This is all tough for us. I want to ctb but I'll do only once, I have my idea albeit it'll be painful / fear included but then hopefully PEACE. Worst possible luck be found early

wait and see, think it out and do what right for you

 

[I screwed up]

3rd floor not high enough my friend, However desperate u r pl have some patience .. U can't take chances with ctb ... I understand u in a bad place right now but U need to be a little more prepared to successfully ctb...