Venting I’m devastated about my Sn not arriving yet

[BlueButterfly111]

I can't get out of bed anymore, I just can't do it. I've been waiting for over a month for my Sn to arrive, I've tried to stay strong and keep acting normal, but I can't keep doing this anymore. It should've arrived already, I'm too tired for this! And I'm getting desperate.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I'm sorry. I think I told you this before, but mine from DMC took like 6 weeks. do you have a alternative plan? I wish I could help. I wish things would have gone differently for all of us that have to do this. for it to get so much harder at the end is crushing.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I'm sorry. I think I told you this before, but mine from DMC took like 6 weeks. do you have an alternative plan? I wish I could help. I wish things would have gone differently for all of us that have to do this. for it to get so much harder at the end is crushing.

I know you told me and I've talked to you several times, and you made me feel reassured. I appreciate you so much, you've been so kind to me. The only alternative method that I had was drowning, which I really didn't want to have to do.

I will try to reorder it before I do that, but I'm just desperate. And I'm sad that it is arriving way later than most people's, because I really want to die asap. It's just so cruel. I was able to get out of bed today, but I really, really didn't want to. I'm at the point where I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this. But I'm trying to be strong while I wait for my Sn to arrive. Thank you again for always caring

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I do care about you. are you going to try from the same DMC or another source? there is a source out of the US abbreviated SD. they have posted they only sell to businesses, but I was not a business and they sent it to me long before DMC. I am trying to wait until May or June, so I can get far enough into the wilderness to hopefully not ever be found. no one should have to drown or any other crude method. I do know one woman who took her life in a river, I have no idea what made her be able to do that. I pray for all of us the best I can, though I don't believe in God per say, I believe there is more than what we experience here. I trust you know what made life here worthwhile and you will know such love again because your allegiance to it is so strong. Please keep me updated. even if it's PM. I will be here until May or June.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[HopingOnaMiracle]

I'm also impatient for my Anti Emetics to arrive. I can't go on living like this any longer. I also can't get out of bed. I hope you get your shit fast.

 

[heavysoul]

Are you in the US? Cause I just saw a thread about SN being stuck in customs for a lot of people since Trump coming into office, so you may not be alone if you're in the US.

Anyone in the US received their SN since Trump took office?

My SN is in the process of leaving the home country and I was wondering if any US members have received their SN since Trump got in office. I know ICE is cracking down on immigrants but I wonder how it is affecting the customs portion of it. Surely surveillance is tighter. I hope it gets here...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Are you in the US? Cause I just saw a thread about SN being stuck in customs for a lot of people since Trump coming into office, so you may not be alone if you're in the US.

Anyone in the US received their SN since Trump took office?

My SN is in the process of leaving the home country and I was wondering if any US members have received their SN since Trump got in office. I know ICE is cracking down on immigrants but I wonder how it is affecting the customs portion of it. Surely surveillance is tighter. I hope it gets here...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Yeah I ordered mine at the end of January, and it still hasn't arrived. They've really shut down the ports and borders. They really want the fentynal trade shut down. Timing kinda sucks for us.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Yeah I ordered mine at the end of January, and it still hasn't arrived. They've really shut down the ports and borders. They really want the fentynal trade shut down. Timing kinda sucks for us.

I didn't know about the possibility of trump shutting things down that way. I thought I read a post recently where someone in the US got theirs pretty fast, it's hard to know what is true or isn't on here sometimes. back when mine finally arrived everyone I had been talking to at that time had gotten there's much quicker than me, I assumed it was because of where I lived in the US, rural area. If it is true that trump is blocking importation somehow or deliveries, I wonder if more people will have to use firearms, provided they can get them with a clear background check.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Are you in the US? Cause I just saw a thread about SN being stuck in customs for a lot of people since Trump coming into office, so you may not be alone if you're in the US.

Anyone in the US received their SN since Trump took office?

My SN is in the process of leaving the home country and I was wondering if any US members have received their SN since Trump got in office. I know ICE is cracking down on immigrants but I wonder how it is affecting the customs portion of it. Surely surveillance is tighter. I hope it gets here...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Yes I'm in the U.S. thank you for telling me that, that makes sense!

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

if people can find it, a brand in the US abbreviated SD is still available and they say only businesses, but it's not true, mine came in a week and half to a residential address. credit card purchased for 99.00 for 150gram at 99% purity.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I do care about you. are you going to try from the same DMC or another source? there is a source out of the US abbreviated SD. they have posted they only sell to businesses, but I was not a business and they sent it to me long before DMC. I am trying to wait until May or June, so I can get far enough into the wilderness to hopefully not ever be found. no one should have to drown or any other crude method. I do know one woman who took her life in a river, I have no idea what made her be able to do that. I pray for all of us the best I can, though I don't believe in God per se, I believe there is more than what we experience here. I trust you know what made life here worthwhile and you will know such love again because your allegiance to it is so strong. Please keep me updated. even if it's PM. I will be here until May or June.

I was going to try again from the same DMC. But god forbid if it still didn't come, then I would probably try a different source! I appreciate you so much. And I will for sure keep you updated with whatever happens!

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I didn't know about the possibility of trump shutting things down that way. I thought I read a post recently where someone in the US got theirs pretty fast, it's hard to know what is true or isn't on here sometimes. back when mine finally arrived everyone I had been talking to at that time had gotten there's much quicker than me, I assumed it was because of where I lived in the US, rural area. If it is true that trump is blocking importation somehow or deliveries, I wonder if more people will have to use firearms, provided they can get them with a clear background check.

They may just be inspecting more. There's still nothing illegal about sn. Their main priority will be the fentanyl, so they'll probably be overworked and just pass any sn through. My guess is it's just backed up because they're looking for fent, and it will just delay orders not stop them entirely.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I was going to try again from the same DMC. But god forbid if it still didn't come, then I would probably try a different source! I appreciate you so much. And I will for sure keep you updated with whatever happens!

do you know the SD source? it comes from inside the US, so no customs debable. mine was USPS out of CA.

They may just be inspecting more. There's still nothing illegal about sn. Their main priority will be the fentanyl, so they'll probably be overworked and just pass any sn through. My guess is it's just backed up because they're looking for fent.

that makes sense, that they are looking for Fent, and so all mystery boxes exp from overseas are getting delayed. Good luck everyone waiting

 

[grapevoid]

It's ok if you take a day off. Stay in bed. Binge tv shows, talk with people here or anywhere else you may have a support system. It's ok to have a day to just be with your feelings.

It's frustrating waiting but it will come and everything will work as planned. Don't allow yourself to get desperate and do something that isn't right for you. It's just another day, few days, maybe even a few weeks honestly BUT it'll be worth the wait. There is still a light at the end of the tunnel, it'll come.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

do you know the SD source? it comes from inside the US, so no customs debable. mine was USPS out of CA.

that makes sense, that they are looking for Fent, and so all mystery boxes exp from overseas are getting delayed. Good luck everyone waiting

About the sd source, I don't think I know about it. I thought I saw something a while ago, but I can't really remember, I would have to try to find it. I just went with DMC because I heard from many people that it was the most legit.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

do you know the SD source? it comes from inside the US, so no customs debable. mine was USPS out of CA.

that makes sense, that they are looking for Fent, and so all mystery boxes exp from overseas are getting delayed. Good luck everyone waiting

Not the SD source mentioned in the new PPH? That's not located inside the US

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

About the sd source, I don't think I know about it. I thought I saw something a while ago, but I can't really remember, I would have to try to find it. I just went with DMC because I heard from many people that it was the most legit.

Sadly, I know 2 people on this forum who had to use SN from SD. it worked for both of them and they gave me the source. I saw their obituaries. neither tested it. I wish they had didn't have to use it. But this life goes very wrong for a lot of us and there is no choice sometimes. not all of us leave goodbye threads or can't leave them. DMC is the SS gold standard though.

Not the SD source mentioned in the new PPH? That's not located inside the US

I'm sorry, I haven't seen the new PPH, but it came to me via USPS priority shipping postmarked from California USA.

 

[divinemistress36]

if people can find it, a brand in the US abbreviated SD is still available and they say only businesses, but it's not true, mine came in a week and half to a residential address. credit card purchased for 99.00 for 150gram at 99% purity.

I Never tested mine but I assume its pure

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I Never tested mine but I assume its pure

I do too, because of the people who died that I knew somewhat through here. I'm glad you are hanging on. I know you have a brain injury. many people I used to talk to on here are gone now, like Suffering_Mo, cant be real and others. some I can only suppose are gone as well, like inpssdhell or avalonbaker, all brain injured. it's the worst suffering possible. I wish it had never come to me. I wish I could heal those of us. IT seems the Rx drugs ones are the worst of the brain injuries too, those are the ones I know who had to die. I am one of those. I wish there was justice, a god, anything that could heal these injuries. Peace be with you, I hope at least some parts of your life are still worth living.

 

[grapevoid]

if people can find it, a brand in the US abbreviated SD is still available and they say only businesses, but it's not true, mine came in a week and half to a residential address. credit card purchased for 99.00 for 150gram at 99% purity.

Would you be willing to pm me more info about this source? I have already ordered from dmc but I am nervous due to the reports of it not arriving and would like a back up source.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Would you be willing to pm me more info about this source? I have already ordered from dmc but I am nervous due to the reports of it not arriving and would like a back up source.

I'm glad you found DMC. I don;t know you or your back story, I don't feel comfortable sharing that kind of info. I don;t want anyone else to have to die. the people that gave me sources knew me for some time, months of private messaging. I think your DMC will arrive. if it doesn't perhaps could revisit with me about alternatives or other more liberal members inre sourcing. Peace be with you

 

[whyDoesItHurtSoMuch]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish it could be different.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish it could be different.

Thank you so much, I appreciate you saying that. Me too

 

[aiyuxhan]

I do too, because of the people who died that I knew somewhat through here. I'm glad you are hanging on. I know you have a brain injury. many people I used to talk to on here are gone now, like Suffering_Mo, cant be real and others. some I can only suppose are gone as well, like inpssdhell or avalonbaker, all brain injured. it's the worst suffering possible. I wish it had never come to me. I wish I could heal those of us. IT seems the Rx drugs ones are the worst of the brain injuries too, those are the ones I know who had to die. I am one of those. I wish there was justice, a god, anything that could heal these injuries. Peace be with you, I hope at least some parts of your life are still worth living.

Wait, they got brain injuries from SN? :(

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Wait, they got brain injuries from SN? :(

No rx drugs like antidepressants, anti psychotics and benzos

 

[aiyuxhan]

No rx drugs like antidepressants, anti psychotics and benzos

I didn't know those meds can do that o:

 

[idiotmother]

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I do too, because of the people who died that I knew somewhat through here. I'm glad you are hanging on. I know you have a brain injury. many people I used to talk to on here are gone now, like Suffering_Mo, cant be real and others. some I can only suppose are gone as well, like inpssdhell or avalonbaker, all brain injured. it's the worst suffering possible. I wish it had never come to me. I wish I could heal those of us. IT seems the Rx drugs ones are the worst of the brain injuries too, those are the ones I know who had to die. I am one of those. I wish there was justice, a god, anything that could heal these injuries. Peace be with you, I hope at least some parts of your life are still worth living.

I am one of those too. Damaged by psych drugs and my own stupidity. If I had just not touched another drug/supplement, I wouldn't be here. I love my family so much. Looking for a peaceful exit.