I'm being lazy on purpose cuz I fucking hate my parents.

[idontwantthisplease]

All I do rn is bedrot and scroll on my nf every single day. I stopped doing art commissions because my family is shit, they're too narrow-minded to acknowledge that I'm mentally unwell and can't function like I used to.

I don't want to help them do house chores, why would I when I fucking hate them so much? My mom had an unrealistic expectation for me to always become the top of my class even if I can't do it as an autistic introvert. She's in denial that I'm autistic btw.

My dad is a religious hypocrite who told me to go read the bible instead of going to a psychiatrist while he himself has been jerking up to AI women in our CR.

My siblings are shit too, they're having their own families one by one so they can't contribute financially to our household anymore. As the youngest out of four siblings, I'm the only one left living with my shitty parents as a broke 19yo.

I wanna get better but I feel like I can't anymore. My savings are only less than $100, how am I supposed to get professional help if I'm broke and a loner? Is getting diagnosed by a psychiatrist worth it? Maybe I'll continue suffering as usual after getting 'professional' help, who knows?

 

[suncide10]

I can relate to not wanting to do house chores. When I was younger I had to do a lot of things just because they don't want to, and even babysit my little brother for hours every day because mom is too busy and dad usualy doesn't care. I have a job now so now they have to do a lot things themselves, but still every time they ask me for help I get filled with anger even if it's something minor.
I hope it'll get better for both of us.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I can get it, I have no energy I just do my college work but I feel too dumb and do things scared of getting kicked out....