I’m back to posting on the forums. Still Sadd. Still Cant.

[Cant Maintain]

Damn, I really think I'm gettin down to that point. I don't get sad or anxious thinking about it anymore. Just a huge sense of calm. I don't see a whole lot more to look forward to but to really just ctb. I saw the precious friend I wanted to see before I did it, them full knowing it could prolly be the last time. I'm disabled and I'm quite sick of it. Definitely using drugs more frequently and haphazardly. And while I'm "ok" rn, I definitely feel like early to late fall is going to be when I make my trip.
My favorite season.
The fact that no one cares about covid anymore in my country will most likely lead to another lockdown…which would absolutely be a coffin nail for me. As the last one absolutely destroyed me.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Hi, friend.

I'm sorry to hear about your suffering. I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry to hear you are suffering, this life really can be tiring. I wish you well.