I’m abt to lose my Mind pls help

[suicidalcat]

I can't even think my rooms been gone through I have fucking nothing anymore I've been clean from sh for months and all
My dhits gone no blades no pencil sharpens no tools to get blades out of anything and all the knives are locked up from when I tried to ctb what the hell do I do I need to desperately do it no lighters either please what can I use to cut myself I know how to clean wounds whatever I don't care just please I can't take this I have no other way to relieve myself anymore I'm going fucking crazy

 

[Minas]

I can't even think my rooms been gone through I have fucking nothing anymore I've been clean from sh for months and all
My dhits gone no blades no pencil sharpens no tools to get blades out of anything and all the knives are locked up from when I tried to ctb what the hell do I do I need to desperately do it no lighters either please what can I use to cut myself I know how to clean wounds whatever I don't care just please I can't take this I have no other way to relieve myself anymore I'm going fucking crazy

You've been clean for months? Thats amazing! Your dedication and will power is inspiring, I can't even stay clean for a single month

 

[xhelx]

Would talking more about it help? I'm listening if yes. Also congrats on being clean for months, that's great!

 

[darksouls]

if I could I would go jogging or do some other sports
that always took the pressure of me
wish you the strength to stay clean

 

[VoidButterfly]

I know this isn't quite what you're asking for but I was taught a harm reduction method by a crisis nurse once - use ice. I know you're not asking for harm reduction, but it sounds like you don't have any other option and it does take the edge off and might be something you can access so that's why I'm suggesting it. Get an ice cube and hold it against your preferred cutting location. It's not the same, it's not, but it does help me at least.