I’m absolute sure

[jimmy7754]

I am absolutely sure I want to die and I just need the right method.. I don't know how to do it and I am so pissed off.. I tried partial but I probably should do full.. I want to order N but it's not in stock.. I wish I had amiptryline where could I get that? I need to go.. I cannot bear going forwards anymore I wish euthanasia was legal.. life really isn't a good experience.. it is horrible and full of trauma.. I'm 32 and in healthcare and I've worked with veterans with PTSD.. I feel just like that at this point.. I am a walking error compared to other people.. I don't need any of this mental health counseling garbage.. I need to get rid of my warped jaded brain that generates a raped filled consciousness every night before I go to sleep… I wish I lived in an apartment enough stories to jump out the window..

 

[CommitSudoku]

It's incredibly frustrating wanting to leave and not having any easy or painless methods available to us. I haven't heard of amiptryline, so can't speak on that. I'm sure when D can sell again many people will be relieved, I liked the sound of N but was too late on it myself. Your work sounds incredibly stressful, but thank you for working there, it's important work. I also often feel like I need to be rid of my brain completely, I don't see myself having peace so long as I continue to think. I'm sorry you're in so much anguish and trapped here. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

More than anything I wish that suicide was easier, we all deserve the option of a peaceful exit when the time is right for us. We live in a world where there is so much suffering after all. I am trapped in this world as it is so difficult to leave. I'm sorry that you are in such an awful situation, it sounds unbearable, living can be very painful as our thoughts can torture us. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens, I wish you the best.