I'll be back here in 1 year

[Busticket]

I have decided not to think about ctb for 1 year.
I will try for 1 year to improve my life as much as I can.
I will abstain from masturbation and porn.
I will exercise and eat healthy.
I will not read the news or watch youtube.
And at the end of this year I will see how I feel.
If I will still be miserable then ctb will be on the table again.
Also I will comeback here and open a thread, this will help me in accountability.

Now as for what happened with that Australian girl.
As of now there is still no response from her.
I think she hasn't seen yet because the circle with the checkmark us not filled.
So I have nothing to do right now but wait.

Anyways, I will be back here on Friday, July 1st, 2022.
I hope to see some of you.
Goodbye.

 

[Fatal Femme]

Now that's what I call discipline!

 

[Weary Soul]

Take care busticket!

I am so very glad you are trying to take steps to recover. I really like that you are setting goals for yourself, I think this is a pretty smart first step! I was told by health workers in the mental field that all it takes is 3 weeks of consistent effort to change or modify a habit - and the way to do this is to set goals. : )

And hey, regarding your relationship with the AUS person you mentioned in another thread. I do not know about youor other people, but sometimes, I romanticize past history, ie., I make more of the positive things that happened to me in the past than what was really true for me at that time. I don't know, but it kinda feels like daydreaming - or thinking.... (as I typically still do which frustrates me no end and causes me a lot or mental pain and regret)... "If only..."

Maybe this was a 2-date, life-learning lesson to grab an opportunity by the horns while it is there. And no, do not grab girls/women by the horns (if they have them - run - just kidding!!!). There are plenty of others out there, and maybe during your hiatus from here you might just find someone more special, and ultimately have a better relationship than before because of this learning lesson. People change a lot over 4 or so years - she and even you, may not be the same people as you were then.

I am sending you all my wishes that you find that way out.

Much love!

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you the best. Hope everything works out for you.

 

[Elysium Searcher]

I really enjoyed reading your posts. I hope everything in your life will improve so that when you come back in 1 year (if you decide to do so) you will be a way happier person. Wishing you the best

 

[bodrioirredento]

That sounds great, I really wish you to not comeback here ever!

 

[Largeletters]

Take care and I wish you all the best. Good luck, please don't give up!

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Sure you will, bro.