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DeadManLiving

DeadManLiving

Ticketholder
Sep 9, 2022
600
Yes.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,591
I should have killed myself in 2005, and I'm still here. Everything I've experienced since 2005 was pointless and not worth it. I hope I won't be here before 2027. 🙏🙏🙏🙏
 
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Yakui

Yakui

i stole some bugs to feed my refrigerator
Feb 4, 2023
1,926
well... yeah, what kinda question is that? the problem is that those things physically cannot be fixed in reality, but if they could, yeah no shit i wouldnt be suicidal lmao.
 
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turstehers

turstehers

Member
Jun 20, 2026
23
Yes and my depression would also vanish overnight hehe. I "only" want a friend that stays a friend and that wants to talk to me and do stuff with me
 
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peacebenow

Too much has happened.
Apr 26, 2026
558
It is impossible now but if miracles and magic then, yes.
 
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Feldsparc

Student
Jan 3, 2025
156
If I could go back a few years and undo my mental health breakdown then yes I would stay. Everything's been fucked since then
I feel this.
 
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hurts2b

hurts2b

Wasting my time
Jun 11, 2026
135
If being alive was the path of least resistance, yes, I would choose it.
 
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accountnamerequired

Student
Oct 9, 2023
103
A cure and unlimited money? Sure
 
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ravendrops

Member
Apr 5, 2026
69
I dunno. There's not much of me left. I already lost my primary functional identity (3 years ago I didn't know I was dissociated). Now I'm functioning as another but I just don't want to keep going. Piles of magic money I don't think would fix the wounds and gangrene.
 
hello707

hello707

hello world
Jun 19, 2026
14
It's difficult to admit but yes. I want to live. But the circumstances I am in don't allow that, so I have to die. Hopefully soon.
 
nowhere123

nowhere123

Member
May 8, 2026
30
I'll choose to stay because all I want is a normal brother and a dad who loves us. Even if life is hard, it doesn't matter—that's all I want.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Destined to die
Nov 1, 2025
316
I would attempt to stay, yes. But it probably won't take long for life to somehow retraumatize me again.
 
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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
660
If I had and could keep a good job, yeah I would stay
 
bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
716
Probably, but it's hard telling how long I'd stay.
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

Student
May 5, 2026
137
If the murders of all my loved ones could be undone and they were alive, and people weren't hostile towards them (my loved ones were nutrias) and I wouldn't have to hide like a thief in the night to see them, if that whole nightmare of the past 4 years could be undone - sure, I'd want to stay for another while, at least as long as I could keep my body strong and athletic too.
 
Andrew10

Andrew10

Student
May 6, 2023
114
If this had been in previous years, that probably would have held me back a little, but I wouldn't change my decision, since sooner or later I'd get bored anyway.

And if it were right now, my answer is a resounding no, my interest in life in general has been completely sapped I hate the way human life works in general; this whole world bores me and simply existing becomes a more complicated task as time goes on. I have 0 desire to continue living and my only ambition is to stop functioning and find eternal peace.

That is my only goal and the only thing worth putting effort into, and it's something I intend to achieve no matter what 💪.
 
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unloveable27

Member
Jan 29, 2026
63
if a loved one came back to life, if all the pain suddenly went away, if a certain situation just didn't happen, etc. would that be enough to keep you alive, or would your desire to die remain beneath it all?

this may be a dumb question to ask, but i've been thinking about it for a while. i'm curious about everyone's answers depending on their situations. does the meaning of reason run deeper than it seems? my perspective is pretty biased because of my own motive, so i'd like to learn if anyone is willing to share.
If I could get another girlfriend i would absolutely stay but it will never happen
 
Bunabelldearest

Bunabelldearest

Internet angel ໒꒱
Jun 21, 2026
24
I wouldn't say it'd make me not want to die because atp that desire outweighs it all but it'd keep me around for a bit longer, just to have a small bit of happiness before I go through with it. Plus I think that if everything was perfect I'd find a way to fuck it up.
 
that_miqo'te

that_miqo'te

Member
May 27, 2024
42
I mean my biggest motivation is being trans so I guess if I could just be a cis girl then maybe I would be fine
 
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never mind me

Experienced
Nov 7, 2022
233
Currently my main motivatin for ctb is an annoying sickness and fear of the future (not getting a job again, that allows me to live decently and not finding an appartment I can rent), so if these things were fixed I would certainly wish to stay alive. Actually I expect my health will improve eventually and afterwards I might be able to fix the job and housing situation, that's why I am still holding on.
 
HFK40000

HFK40000

Not Living Just Killing Time
Apr 14, 2026
42
The answer is yes. The only thing I want is to be with my ex. Honestly if she were to respond to my messages that might be enough.
 
groovygoober

groovygoober

Member
Apr 1, 2026
36
If I could go back in time a few years and just fix the slump I fell into , then its a high possibility .
 
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LostHighway

Student
May 5, 2025
125
if a loved one came back to life, if all the pain suddenly went away, if a certain situation just didn't happen, etc. would that be enough to keep you alive, or would your desire to die remain beneath it all?

this may be a dumb question to ask, but i've been thinking about it for a while. i'm curious about everyone's answers depending on their situations. does the meaning of reason run deeper than it seems? my perspective is pretty biased because of my own motive, so i'd like to learn if anyone is willing to share.
Who gets everything they wanted? The Serenity Prayer comes to mind. Of course if I get everything I wanted, I would want to live. but i'm not asking for much - the bare minimum really - to be able to SLEEP, and to feel financially secure as i go into old age. i can put up with severe ME/CFS and Long Covid.
If I could go back in time a few years and just fix the slump I fell into , then its a high possibility .
perhaps you can now. :)
 
AgnesTachyon

AgnesTachyon

antinatalist, efilist, solipsist, misanthrope
Jun 10, 2026
6
no. the peace of non existence doesn't have price.​
 
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glassskin

glassskin

Member
Mar 5, 2023
11
no. that's why i'm here goddamn it. i have everything i want. i just can't feel any connection, purpose, meaning or reason to be here or do anything. i've travelled the world, achieved career success, all the normie shit. i felt and still feel absolutely nothing. everything is so meaningless and no one understands how that feels. antidepressants don't do shit. i'm just biologically broken.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,448
no. I would never want to stay in this hell

I hate this evil world evil life and the evil pleasure addictions

it's these nightmares that cased the worst things to happen to me

why would I suddenly embrace my torturers?
 
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theonethatsleeps

theonethatsleeps

between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing
Nov 10, 2025
12
if a loved one came back to life, if all the pain suddenly went away, if a certain situation just didn't happen, etc. would that be enough to keep you alive, or would your desire to die remain beneath it all?

this may be a dumb question to ask, but i've been thinking about it for a while. i'm curious about everyone's answers depending on their situations. does the meaning of reason run deeper than it seems? my perspective is pretty biased because of my own motive, so i'd like to learn if anyone is willing to share.
Well if every bad thing would turn good, I would at least try it. But that won't happen.
 
canidiealreadyy

canidiealreadyy

coolest ever
Feb 12, 2024
22
if a loved one came back to life, if all the pain suddenly went away, if a certain situation just didn't happen, etc. would that be enough to keep you alive, or would your desire to die remain beneath it all?

this may be a dumb question to ask, but i've been thinking about it for a while. i'm curious about everyone's answers depending on their situations. does the meaning of reason run deeper than it seems? my perspective is pretty biased because of my own motive, so i'd like to learn if anyone is willing to share.
i think 100% i would stay but i would eventually return to suicide again. i lost my grandma in 2023 and would love to see her again. i would love to be in a relationship again, i think im nothing if im not a lover girl and i wish i was able to love someone.
 

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