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Apr 15, 2026
30
My mentally ill grandmother should have been sterilised. That would have saved the earth two more generations of suffering
 
Bikishii

Bikishii

yeah yeah whatever
Mar 12, 2026
79
Oh god, just one thing? You're putting me in a real bind here.

Pursuing my life track that I'd had set out as a child. I was working towards that all the way from preschool through early high school. Then things got suddenly all changed up and I could no longer do what I was best at and what brought me most joy, and was pushed into something I loathed then and loathe now.

That's something I would change. I know that's a hell of a change, it's a massive trajectory difference for years upon years, but I'd easily have preferred to go along with what I always wanted to do, what I was always meant to do, even with all the other extra challenges, problems, and horrid bits that would entail as well.
 
starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
536
my need for validation. i wish that shit would go away.
 
inpainnosleep

inpainnosleep

Member
Apr 11, 2026
44
I wish I never met one of my best friends. Intentionally and unintentionally, I now see clearly that connection ruined my life through the butterfly effect. I def would have done way less drugs, so probably wouldn't be experiencing the health problems that I am now which are making me want to CBT. But there were other things that happened with that friend that led me to a year long nervous breakdown in college, and then to my main nervous breakdown right after college.
 
Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
448
My neurodivergence. I wish I could change the neural pathways in my mind so that I'm neurotypical, and then I can be normal, which is what this world is meant for - normal people.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,298
I should have had CTB in 2023 or 2024 when I had access to a place 60m high near my home (hard rock at the bottom)...now I can no longer access it
 
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bakenohana

bakenohana

ah...I want to disappear.
Feb 12, 2026
135
being born entirely really. or maybe change my birth so that they got my sex right 😅 maybe things would be different if i wasn't like this
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to kill myself
Oct 25, 2020
2,298
Naître ainsi, vraiment. Ou peut-être changer ma naissance pour qu'ils se trompent de sexe ; 😅 les choses seraient peut-être différentes si je n'étais pas comme ça.
Also never has been born
 
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thelostautistic

Mage
Jul 31, 2025
509
I would take away my Autism. I don't hate everything about it but it's the main source of my depression and makes life so difficult.
 

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