Discussion If you could ask for help one last time...how would you do it??

[c.c]

I know many of us aren't getting the help we deserve or feel like we dont but let's say Hypothetically..if yall could ask for ONE LAST TIME again with any kind of help regarding your suffering(not with CTB) with anyone you once expected or needed or just still need or crave help or support from...who would ask help from? And what would you say to that person to make them understand what you went through and are still going through?

*Pretend this thread is them and your are asking them for help for one last time.. and say what you would say to them in real life if given a chance*

 

[divinemistress36]

I would ask my mom to please come with me to do psychadelic assisted therapy because nothing has helped my ptsd or depression

 

[broken_stoic]

I did, and my last two friends (in the area) refused to respect what I was asking for (mostly respecting my boundaries). Now I'm on my own. Don't know how I'm going to do it (they were giving financial support I really needed), but I will. I don't intend to ctb at this point, but I've been very close for a long time now.

I would ask my mom to please come with me to do psychadelic assisted therapy because nothing has helped my ptsd or depression

Fuck if I ever get back on my feet I'll come do psychedelic assisted therapy with you. I was planning to do it at some point. At this point finances are an issue so may not happen for some time.

 

[iw2live_idkhow]

I don't have anyone I could ask for help from

 

[c.c]

I don't have anyone I could ask for help from

Hope you will find one soon

 

[divinemistress36]

I did, and my last two friends (in the area) refused to respect what I was asking for (mostly respecting my boundaries). Now I'm on my own. Don't know how I'm going to do it (they were giving financial support I really needed), but I will. I don't intend to ctb at this point, but I've been very close for a long time now.

Fuck if I ever get back on my feet I'll come do psychedelic assisted therapy with you. I was planning to do it at some point. At this point finances are an issue so may not happen for some time.

Everyone should have a chance to try it

 

[c.c]

I did, and my last two friends (in the area) refused to respect what I was asking for (mostly respecting my boundaries). Now I'm on my own. Don't know how I'm going to do it (they were giving financial support I really needed), but I will. I don't intend to ctb at this point, but I've been very close for a long time now.

Fuck if I ever get back on my feet I'll come do psychedelic assisted therapy with you. I was planning to do it at some point. At this point finances are an issue so may not happen for some time.

Hope you get your financial problems sorted out and get back on your feet quickly

I would ask my mom to please come with me to do psychadelic assisted therapy because nothing has helped my ptsd or depression

hope she will

 

[iw2live_idkhow]

Hope you will find one soon

no, it'll be easier without causing someone else more pain

 

[c.c]

no, it'll be easier without causing someone else more pain

It isn't a pain to help someone especially when they need it and are even asking for it..anyone who cares would do it without asking..

 

[iw2live_idkhow]

It isn't a pain to help someone especially when they need it and are even asking for it..anyone who cares would do it without asking..

sometimes there isn't a clear way to help, and then all that happens is you perpetuate suffering for two instead of one

 

[Dejected 55]

Most people I cannot ask nor could they provide any help. Many of them wouldn't be doing it for my benefit anyway, but to alleviate their own guilt.

There is one person who I believe could make a difference by showing me some kindness, she she literally ignores me. I even finally went full honesty and said a few weeks ago how I saw no reason to be around anymore and wouldn't be reaching out to her anymore and that I hoped to be gone in a couple of months. Ignored completely, as usual for me.

 

[c.c]

sometimes there isn't a clear way to help, and then all that happens is you perpetuate suffering for two instead of one

I really hope you find both help and support that you deserve

Most people I cannot ask nor could they provide any help. Many of them wouldn't be doing it for my benefit anyway, but to alleviate their own guilt.

There is one person who I believe could make a difference by showing me some kindness, she she literally ignores me. I even finally went full honesty and said a few weeks ago how I saw no reason to be around anymore and wouldn't be reaching out to her anymore and that I hoped to be gone in a couple of months. Ignored completely, as usual for me.

I hope you find a better person than her

 

[wantingdignity]

My partner left me because I was suicidal. I wasn't threatening to do it, I told him I was really struggling and that I was planning to get help. I attempted after he dumped me.

I would ask him if my life mattered to him. If our 8 years mattered to him. If he loved me. If our life together was really so bad that he felt like abandoning me when I just needed someone to hold me while I cried. I was trying so hard not to be a burden on him. I was so worried about protecting him. I just wished he'd care about me too.

 

[Rynalia]

Ah... I did ask for help one last time. It ended up in flames.

I reckon that's why I've doubled down this path of just withering away with gusto.

 

[c.c]

My partner left me because I was suicidal. I wasn't threatening to do it, I told him I was really struggling and that I was planning to get help. I attempted after he dumped me.

I would ask him if my life mattered to him. If our 8 years mattered to him. If he loved me. If our life together was really so bad that he felt like abandoning me when I just needed someone to hold me while I cried. I was trying so hard not to be a burden on him. I was so worried about protecting him. I just wished he'd care about me too.

I am so sorry you met someone like that i can understand though it's not as significant as you but i too wished that my bf would understand me and my depression and ptsd and that i too just wanted to be held while i cried and apologised for things he did wrong but guess his problems will always be bigger than mine and i would always have to understand him?
I hope that you find a loving, caring and a real considerate partner soon

Ah... I did ask for help one last time. It ended up in flames.

I reckon that's why I've doubled down this path of just withering away with gusto.

Hope you find your happiness and peace soon

 

[JesiBel]

Only death can help me and save me. There's always a stronger storm to face, a darker, deeper abyss to fall into. I no longer let myself be tempted by false hopes.

 

[c.c]

Only death can help me and save me. There's always a stronger storm to face, a darker, deeper abyss to fall into. I no longer let myself be tempted by false hopes.

May you find real support and happiness soon

 

[Dejected 55]

I hope you find a better person than her

I will not. Firstly because she is the best woman I have ever known. Secondly because if someone so compatible with me can so easily ignore me as if I mean less than nothing, then there is no point. I wouldn't try again because this has been so awful even if it were possible to get over and forget her one day. I am a closed book now to connections. I am ruined and broken forever. I can't wait until I have the courage enough to be out.

 

[c.c]

I will not. Firstly because she is the best woman I have ever known. Secondly because if someone so compatible with me can so easily ignore me as if I mean less than nothing, then there is no point. I wouldn't try again because this has been so awful even if it were possible to get over and forget her one day. I am a closed book now to connections. I am ruined and broken forever. I can't wait until I have the courage enough to be out.

Then may you find someone who would take a bit of your burden,pain and stress off your shoulder before you go♡

 

[Exhausted-and-Alone]

I don't even know who I'd go to. The hospital maybe, maybe just my therapist. I'd give them my ratchet straps and the notes I'd made and hand them over. I think the tension marks and the fact that the straps original green color has faded into white around the makeshift noose would say enough about what's going on with me. I have to give it to them, because I know if I don't then I wouldn't be committing to recovery, not fully.

I would need to be hospitalized, and in the event that I could and would finally commit to recovering, that's okay, because I know I would probably need it. I would probably need to go to residential, back through PHP, then IOP before being a part of society again.

I wouldn't tell my family. They wouldn't understand and they may even berate me for it. I can't tell my fiancé because it would break his heart to know the truth of what I've been doing. Any friends that I do have are either online, or are already doing poorly- to the point where I step in and help them through their emotions, so I don't think it would be fair or appropriate to lay this at their feet.

But if I go to the therapist or the hospital and I willingly admit myself or submit myself to their treatment whims, no one needs to know precisely what happened or the longevity of these compulsions/attempts/behaviors - I can just tell them that I wasn't feeling safe and I needed help… and since I'm already in the hospital there's not much they can do to me and I don't have to see them until visitation or release.

 

[broken_stoic]

I don't even know who I'd go to. The hospital maybe, maybe just my therapist. I'd give them my ratchet straps and the notes I'd made and hand them over. I think the tension marks and the fact that the straps original green color has faded into white around the makeshift noose would say enough about what's going on with me. I have to give it to them, because I know if I don't then I wouldn't be committing to recovery, not fully.

I would need to be hospitalized, and in the event that I could and would finally commit to recovering, that's okay, because I know I would probably need it. I would probably need to go to residential, back through PHP, then IOP before being a part of society again.

I wouldn't tell my family. They wouldn't understand and they may even berate me for it. I can't tell my fiancé because it would break his heart to know the truth of what I've been doing. Any friends that I do have are either online, or are already doing poorly- to the point where I step in and help them through their emotions, so I don't think it would be fair or appropriate to lay this at their feet.

But if I go to the therapist or the hospital and I willingly admit myself or submit myself to their treatment whims, no one needs to know precisely what happened or the longevity of these compulsions/attempts/behaviors - I can just tell them that I wasn't feeling safe and I needed help… and since I'm already in the hospital there's not much they can do to me and I don't have to see them until visitation or release.

I feel for you. Having to hide it from everyone fucking sucks.