Venting If My Body Starts To Go, I'm Done.

[imtiredasf]

I've had consistent neck pain for the last year. I woke up this morning with a muscle spasm so tight in my left arm, I can barely raise it above my nipples. If my body continues to rot and degrade in the same manner as my mental health, I'm going to wind up ctb quicker than I had anticipated. This existence isn't fucking great, and it continues to get worse, and the only thing I can do is hope for it to get better and wind up getting my hopes dashed like everything else. I'm tired.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Oh, darling, I understand you're tired already. Maybe it's something that will go away? Or maybe it won't get worse. No need to suffer from anticipation, now...here, let mama bear hug you strong and nice. You don't need to let go until you want to, honey pot... *warm bear hug"

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel tired, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I also feel so tired of it all, I wish you the best.

 

[imtiredasf]

I understand why you'd feel tired, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I also feel so tired of it all, I wish you the best.

I feel like everything is cruel because whatever higher power one might believe in, or whatever cosmic influence there is, doesn't give a single solitary fuck about how we feel. The universe itself is nihilistic. But that's also just me being in a sour mood. Thank you for your empathy.

 

[bankai]

I have the same long-term plan. Health is the most important thing ,if that starts to go ,well theres just no point in continuing forward