If I lived alone, I would have died long ago.

[Death is beautiful]

I live with my family and they very rarely leave me alone, and even then they come back very quickly. Because of this, CTB is very difficult for me, I won't be able to rent a hotel room until the fall of this year, doing it in the woods or somewhere else seems unreasonable to me, I just don't want it. It seems to me that if I lived alone I wouldn't have any obstacles for CTB

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not live alone as well. Failing ctb is what I fear and it is what holds me back. Because of this, I feel trapped, it can be a dreadful situation to be in. I wish you the best.

 

[uselesswaste]

Living alone will probably make you feel less suicidal or feel some kind of freedom and you can try things you want to, but it depends on your mental illness.

 

[Death is beautiful]

Living alone will probably make you feel less suicidal or feel some kind of freedom and you can try things you want to, but it depends on your mental illness.

I do not have a disease, but I am sure that living alone will not weaken my suicidal thoughts

 

[Sherri]

i understand you, it would be traumatising to your loved ones a lot. Sorry you feel so low.

 

[return2dreamland]

highly relatable. even though every day has been worse than the last i haven't tried anything in months because i'm scared of messing up my family. hoping things work out for you <3

 

[Crazy4u]

do they know you are suicidal? how do they know? why don't they leave you alone?

 

[Death is beautiful]

do they know you are suicidal? how do they know? why don't they leave you alone?

My mother and sister know that I'm a little suicidal, but that's not the point, I have a big family and they just can't leave me alone for a long time

 

[VoidDesirer22]

Yeah it is fucking annoying knowing you cannot get packages sent without someone reading the label. It makes me want to scream and runaway. Having to share space is a low level of torture.

 

[Niirvana]

I live alone and even the decision to carry out ctb is difficult, even having the sn