Venting :( idk

[ilovenoodles]

i don't know anymore, life just seems pointless for me now. I know I'm still young and nothing goes according to plan but when everything just comes crashing down at once, it's just too much idk :( I attempted od last week and that didn't work but I might try again tonight with more pills and hope it works for good. I feel like a terrible person too since when I last attempted, my bf lost feelings for me and when I kinda hinted to him what I had done, he immediately switched up and suddenly 'regained his feelings for me' so like idk it just felt like I had guilt tripped him and ever since that, I've felt like a bad person and felt like an attention seeker, he's even mad at me rn too but I'm obviously not gonna tell him about my plan for tonight. i thought my life would be worth something since i grew up pretty smart but i guess i got lazy and turned stupid since I'm even failing exams now in even classes full of idiots, im just failing at everything rn & no matter how hard I try, nothing works out for me and I'm just so done with it all :( my only dream since I was a kid (as pathetic as it is) was to have my own cute little family one day and have a daughter but I guess that's never gonna happen now but it's okayyyy, I probably wont be missing out on much anyways since my life doesn't look very promising. idk I'm just typing random things :(

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be hard to not worry about your boyfriend but, you clearly aren't attention seeking.

I would recommend rethinking another overdose. They are fairly notorious for failing. Plus, some can leave you with major organ damage. There have been other threads on it but, this one covers overdoses:

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[ilovenoodles]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be hard to not worry about your boyfriend but, you clearly aren't attention seeking.

I would recommend rethinking another overdose. They are fairly notorious for failing. Plus, some can leave you with major organ damage. There have been other threads on it but, this one covers overdoses:

Non-methods that should not be attempted

mod note: this has been added to the suicide resource compilation at the top. This has been made in response to the ever increasing amount of posts made about highly unlikely methods. Please read before posting about one of these methods or feel free to link if someone does post about them...

sanctioned-suicide.net

thanks so much for thiss! <3