Idk what to do

[NotOkay_]

Hi guys, so basically… i was meant to CTB latest by Feb this year but i kept putting it off and distracting myself. I'm in student accommodation as well and I'm meant to be out in 2 days especially as I'm behind with rent and I'm a suspended student. I have no where else to go, my spending habits weren't the best when i did have money because I thought I'd be gone by now. I've applied for benefits but the outcome won't be till the end of next month. The uni are aware that I'm struggling which is why they let me stay so long but I'm out of options. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid of being forcefully evicted. Going home is not an option. Any advice would be appreciated.

 

[logan]

Don't you have someone who can help you financially first?
Or maybe a temporary job so that you first have some money again?

 

[hʚll]

is there no other family member (that doesn't live back at your home) that could take you with them until you get an answer about the benefits? or a friend?
or maybe someone could lend you some money?

 

[NotOkay_]

is there no other family member (that doesn't live back at your home) that could take you with them until you get an answer about the benefits? or a friend?
or maybe someone could lend you some money?

No not really lol, i was relying on CTB. Because of my health (the reason for everything fucking up) everything has crumbled all my friends have run off etc. And working is impossible. If i had the capacity to work I wouldn't even be in this situation.

 

[hʚll]

i'm sorry.. if you had the benefits now would you still ctb? i don't know how to help.. but maybe you could try asking some more time to the uni, explaining your health problem, that you can't work and have nowhere to go. maybe they could still help you, at least that's what i hope for you

 

[NotOkay_]

Probably just gonna CTB today then. I have no choice, maybe this is the push i needed.

 

[hʚll]

Probably just gonna CTB today then. I have no choice, maybe this is the push i needed.

i'm sorry you feel like you are forced to ctb, but i'd still try asking for a few days, because even killing yourself needs some preparation, unless you already know how to do it

 

[logan]

Probably just gonna CTB today then. I have no choice, maybe this is the push i needed.

Hey, excuse me, but that's really no reason to take your own life! The situation is difficult - but in no case is that a reason for such a step!

 

[NotOkay_]

i'm sorry you feel like you are forced to ctb, but i'd still try asking for a few days, because even killing yourself needs some preparation, unless you already know how to do it

I've had it all prepared for a few months now.

Hey, excuse me, but that's really no reason to take your own life! The situation is difficult - but in no case is that a reason for such a step!

It's because of my worsening health. It's not because of anything else, this is just adding insult to litterally injury.

 

[hʚll]

you know better than us what is best for you..

i wish you peace and to be free of pain soon, regardless of what you choose to do..
good luck

 

[logan]

I've had it all prepared for a few months now.

It's because of my worsening health. It's not because of anything else, this is just adding insult to litterally injury.

Ok, I didn't know that.
I still hope you find a way.
You can always take the last step if there really is no solution.

 

[puppet_nihilist]

Welcome to my world, I should've killed myself the first week of june because of university stress and expected failure, a bit similar to your situation, yet here I am like a pathetic piece of shit. I hope your situation isn't so messed up, if you could get a part time job, some therapy and medication on the side, would it work out or is that not possible for your circumstances? Otherwise, ctb is an option still but it is very unnecessarily hard that I can't call it an "option" anymore. I'm willing to ctb since I am not even my country and I can't get a part time job at all, hopefully soon, today or tmrw just this week. But it's very hard so if it's possible for you to work or anything in the time being do it, relying on ctb to be easy even after some experience is a mistake I keep making, but then again I had no easier method like N or SN...
Either way, I relate a lot to your situation, it's awful but I hope you can resolve it, one way or the other eventually.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that life has came to this, it can be very cruel. It is hard to be stuck in a hopeless situation. I hope you can resolve your current situation but I understand how health problems can ruin our lives. If you decide to ctb then I wish you peace.

 

[NotOkay_]

i'm sorry.. if you had the benefits now would you still ctb? i don't know how to help.. but maybe you could try asking some more time to the uni, explaining your health problem, that you can't work and have nowhere to go. maybe they could still help you, at least that's what i hope for you

I've been wanting to CTB regardless because of my health for a year now.