IDK how much more I can take

[Thatdude]

So being autistic and someone who has actually tried my hardest to make it, I found the normal path in the job market simply doesn't work at all at all. Even after getting my degrees and so on that I was told it would get me in the door. I found today the best I still can get is the same I could with no degree and that is flipping burgers or cleaning floors (I even done this for a while). When I do get into a job I ended up dealing with extreme workplace harassment. And looking into it, it's highly normal for autistic people to live like this.

Because of this, I'm living with my parents and constantly worried I will be kicked out. Just today because I told my sister to stop drinking I ended up getting attacked by my parents and threaten to be kicked out. I ended up getting ding even with how my sister breaks stuff all the time around the house, starts fights, makes her kids cry at times from her being a drunk, and so on. And to be blunt, I'm pretty sure I've gotten a stroke due to this crap. It's that or I have dementia, and I think a stroke is a much higher likely.

I wanted to go out with the exit bag method, but getting all the parts is pretty much impossible. I would like to do a night night method, but I'm having a similar problem in getting all the stuff to do that. The only thing I can think of is partial hanging.

I'm just so tired of this world. This world of corruption, hate, extreme abuse, and so on.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I chose the wrong occupation many years ago. I'm not autistic though relate to what you are saying. I feel a stroke coming on, I have been smoking for a long time. I have 0 job prospects.

That really sucks about your sister being a drunk and a bad mom and your parents threatening you will being kicked out after saying anything. I sorta live with a similar threat.

I'm sorry to hear it sucks so terribly.

 

[ajdhabajdyst]

i'm so sorry- i hope whatever method you choose brings you peace <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is tiring and painful, I'm sorry you are suffering so much and are going through this. I cannot wait to leave this world and I am tired of it too. I wish you well.