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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
647
Reason no. 3617363 why I want to fucking die because my mind confuses me too much regarding how I want to appear in the world……

One moment I want to look and feel like him:
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(Chiron from "Moonlight" (2016))


and literally the next fucking moment I want to look and feel like her:
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(baddie from a Pinterest board)


like how tf am I seriously supposed to choose—🙄 its annoying how there are so many different versions of myself in my head yet nothing but a human husk is presented in reality………..

this shit is more complex than I can articulate right now, but Ik I cant be the only one here with this sorta problem.😵‍💫

"Can I take undiagnosed personality disorder for 300$ please!"🤣🤣
 
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bagel12

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Jul 7, 2026
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you're not the only one who feels this way! have you looked into gender fluidity? here's the wikipedia page, it's been observed across many societies for many centuries. it was celebrated in Navajo culture. you might also like the r/genderfluid subreddit, there are many people who feel the same way

also damn both of them are so fine. i need to watch moonlight again
 
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meowpuppy

meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
170
why not look like both? they're both pretty hot so i can see why you'd want to be one of them
 
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boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
117
It's nice to see other moonlight fans!! That movie is in my top 10 for sure (:

Both of them look awesome!
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,635
Quarter life crisis bby! I remember mine.

Keep some things in mind. You can dabble a little bit in different looks at the same point in your life. Get a few clothing items from each option and see what you feel comfortable and comfortable wearing. Also know that if you pick one now that does not lock you in for the rest of your life, you can change over the course of your life and you most likely will, and that's ok. Finally, you also do not have to have one specific look. You are allowed to be a chameleon.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
May 21, 2025
647
you're not the only one who feels this way! have you looked into gender fluidity? here's the wikipedia page, it's been observed across many societies for many centuries. it was celebrated in Navajo culture. you might also like the r/genderfluid subreddit, there are many people who feel the same way

also damn both of them are so fine. i need to watch moonlight again
Im actually trying to find a way to upload it to a link sharing service so I can send it to the Moonlight fans under this thread.
Got the whole movie saved on my phone, but this shit is difficult lol.
 
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burninghill

burninghill

Specialist
Dec 2, 2025
391
Haha I feel this. I'm genderqueer. Born a woman, transitioned into a man, then settled on something in between.

I never feel masculine or feminine enough, but I'm okay with that. I'm happy being some sort of androgynous creature. It largely helps to have people around who support you, if you are genderqueer. Having your community affirm the way you're feeling is the best.
 
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slowlybreaking

slowlybreaking

I couldn't save you...
Jul 9, 2026
23
I totally get ya, I'm genderfluid myself! I just haven't been able to express it due to lack of money but my face structure already gives me bonus points on androgyny. Given that I have medium-long hair and most of the time I use eyeliner when going out, I feel comfortable enough in that. Would like to present myself as more femenine sometimes though, but again, no money.
 

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