Venting I'd like to get better, but...

[skotak]

There is just nowhere to turn. There's no way I can get better because there's just no place to go. I'm scared to die, I'm scared to hurt my family. But my God, I want to die so bad.
I have no friends, no education, too young to have any worthy work experience, no self esteem, no money. All I'm doing here is depressing about. Whenever I come up with a new plan to turn my life around, bam, a new wall to face. It's just impossible, life doesn't want me to get better

 

[Red]

It's always like swimming upstream isn't it??
Even if you let go and float where the current takes you, it seems to gleefully smash you into rocks and take you under the surface just to push you up and force you to catch your breath before being taken off in a different direction.
Much love and empathy, for I don't have any answers for it either

 

[Bct]

Sorry you're in a hopeless situation. It's really heartbreaking when life always make you in a worse situation.