I work, I’m exhausted and I don’t feel like myself anymore.

[jimmy7754]

I work, I'm exhausted and I don't feel like myself anymore. I have no spark to do the things I once did. I have no dreams anymore or inspirations.. I think life can be great but I didn't make any fucking sense.. I don't like the choices I've made.. It went way too fast and flew by.. and before you know it I got up to some bullshit that got me an injury I can't shake.. I'm alone a lot.. not a lot of people want to talk to me or get to know me much anymore because I'm a lost soul..

I'm starting to realize how much I've been left to my own after college and I can't figure "this" out… suicide is hard af and I feel trapped in my own skin..

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Once you realize you fucked up and others do as well, people slip away and you end up alone…

 

[CommitSudoku]

I really relate to this. I wish I could have just a single proper week off from working at least but I hate myself so much the time off would be unbearable. My time is so worthless and hurts me. I can't even work right and wish they would fire me so I'd have more time to sleep at least. I'm sorry you also feel this way, I don't know how to overcome it myself. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[jimmy7754]

I really relate to this. I wish I could have just a single proper week off from working at least but I hate myself so much the time off would be unbearable. My time is so worthless and hurts me. I can't even work right and wish they would fire me so I'd have more time to sleep at least. I'm sorry you also feel this way, I don't know how to overcome it myself. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

I just wish the college I went to wasn't such a scam when I was young.. I only had 3 years with my dad before he died when I got home.. fucking crooks got me in a debt pot.. I even got another degree to work and I can't seem to figure my life out at all.. I feel like such a gullible.. vulnerable idiot for getting this way.. I couldn't make sense early on and I literally feel like I'm getting eaten alive in my 30's.. horrible horrible feeling and I wish I could sign up for an assisted suicide and just get rid of me.. I just can't deal with this rodeo anymore..

We are social and solitary animals in the civilian world.. and the game being played is all who you know or work really hard and hope for the best… if you don't get what you want then it's one day at a time… one horrible miserable day at a time..

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much. I know that it can be awful living such a miserable existence. I understand that it can be unbearable when everything is so hopeless. Suicide really is so difficult and more than anything I wish that it was easier. All that I want is to be gone. I wish you the best in whatever happens, I hope you find relief from your suffering.