Venting i wish i never introduced them to each other

[sleepydeaths]

that's it. that's all. i just wish i never introduced them to each other. im selfish for saying it. whenever they share affection for each other it genuinely triggers my bpd splits so horribly i self-harm.

this sucks. i dont want my friends to be a constant source of splitting and spiraling for me. i wish i never introduced them to each other. i really have to die

 

[ctb_warrior]

that's it. that's all. i just wish i never introduced them to each other. im selfish for saying it. whenever they share affection for each other it genuinely triggers my bpd splits so horribly i self-harm.

this sucks. i dont want my friends to be a constant source of splitting and spiraling for me. i wish i never introduced them to each other. i really have to die

Don't be so harsh on yourself dear brother

 

[sleepydeaths]

Don't be so harsh on yourself dear brother

its hard not to be when im just being objectively selfish about it lol its not them doing anything its just me. i want to die

 

[ctb_warrior]

its hard not to be when im just being objectively selfish about it lol its not them doing anything its just me. i want to die

Itz ok, you are a human, not a saint or angel or god. You've your emotions and desires. And this is not more important than your life. Not that I'm a proLifer, but I'm talking about your self worth

 

[sleepydeaths]

Itz ok, you are a human, not a saint or angel or god. You've your emotions and desires. And this is not more important than your life. Not that I'm a proLifer, but I'm talking about your self worth

i just wish i never introduced them to each other whenever they do normal couple shit it genuinely triggers me so bad i self-harm i genuinely dont know how much longer i can deal with it

 

[valar_morghulis21]

that's it. that's all. i just wish i never introduced them to each other. im selfish for saying it. whenever they share affection for each other it genuinely triggers my bpd splits so horribly i self-harm.

this sucks. i dont want my friends to be a constant source of splitting and spiraling for me. i wish i never introduced them to each other. i really have to die

I definitely felt that before too. But maybe think of you was the reason they find happiness? And also not hanging out with both of them at the same time may help.

 

[sleepydeaths]

I definitely felt that before too. But maybe think of you was the reason they find happiness? And also not hanging out with both of them at the same time may help.

this does not make me feel any better im sorry

i try not to but its an online environment where we've known each other for years so its very difficult

 

[notthatclever]

What is going on? Who introduced who where? Are you talking about people here on the site?