Venting I wish i had my own room

[Unknown21]

I really wish I had a room of my own. I live with a lot of people in an old, moldy apartment. Unfortunately, I share my room with two roommates, and this has prevented me from doing it until now. The only solution I have is to do it in a garbage dump but unfortunately, whenever I go there I find the survival instinct present and strong because it is a scary, unfamiliar and exposed place. I thought about booking a hotel, but I only have money for the funeral.
I don't know what to do, I'm so tired and I want to do it so bad.
I really wish I had my own room.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I really wish I had a room of my own. I live with a lot of people in an old, moldy apartment. Unfortunately, I share my room with two roommates, and this has prevented me from doing it until now. The only solution I have is to do it in a garbage dump but unfortunately, whenever I go there I find the survival instinct present and strong because it is a scary, unfamiliar and exposed place. I thought about booking a hotel, but I only have money for the funeral.
I don't know what to do, I'm so tired and I want to do it so bad.
I really wish I had my own room.

Do you live in Asia?

 

[Unknown21]

Do you live in Asia?

No, Africa.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Why care about the funeral costs?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

The only solution I have is to do it in a garbage dump

You don't deserve this and no other human should have to do it in a garbage dump either. This is so inhumane. But why care about the funeral costs? It's not your problem anymore, you're relieved. I'd really consider the hotel room.

 

[Unknown21]

You don't deserve this and no other human should have to do it in a garbage dump either. This is so inhumane. But why care about the funeral costs? It's not your problem anymore, you're relieved. I'd really consider the hotel room.

I just don't want to be a burden to anyone and on top of that I'm suffering from severe depression these days I literally can't get out of bed. I don't have the energy for anything, I just want to end the matter in peace once and for all.