bl33ding_heart
Borderline
- Jun 24, 2025
- 229
I'm very sorry if I'm posting too much, I usually don't but I'm just in a lot of pain right now and currently crying my eyes out. :/
I'm seriously so done with people, and so done with life in general. No matter how honest or heartfelt I try to be I always end up getting used or hurt in some way. And because I have bpd it feels like being hit by a train.
It's happened many times before, but this time it is especially bad. It's by someone I trusted and loved. And there's only so many times you can go through something before you're at your wits end.
I'm just so done, and I wish I could die right now. I'm so fucking exhausted and I genuinely believed I could be on my road to recovery. But I just don't think I have it in me anymore.
Even if I am lucky enough to recover, I know for a fact this will happen again and again. And I don't wanna be stuck in some never ending loop of having to try and get my very long gone sanity back again.
I'm just so tired, and I wish things were different. I really do. But fate is not on my side. So death probably will have to be.
I'm seriously so done with people, and so done with life in general. No matter how honest or heartfelt I try to be I always end up getting used or hurt in some way. And because I have bpd it feels like being hit by a train.
It's happened many times before, but this time it is especially bad. It's by someone I trusted and loved. And there's only so many times you can go through something before you're at your wits end.
I'm just so done, and I wish I could die right now. I'm so fucking exhausted and I genuinely believed I could be on my road to recovery. But I just don't think I have it in me anymore.
Even if I am lucky enough to recover, I know for a fact this will happen again and again. And I don't wanna be stuck in some never ending loop of having to try and get my very long gone sanity back again.
I'm just so tired, and I wish things were different. I really do. But fate is not on my side. So death probably will have to be.
