I wish i could hire someone to do it for me

[usernamehere]

Idk if i have enough. I think there would be someone willing to do it for 5k. I messaged my abusive ex asking him. Stupid i know but i feel like i cannot do it myself and he said he was in a gang before idk. I prob cant get help on this topic? But if i can that would be nice.

Because theres no way to promise ill die without potentially hurting other people. 5k btw.

 

[DeadnDusted]

I don't think you should ever be doing that at all. Even if you find someone who accepts, you never know what horrid shit they could do to you besides carrying it out. I'd urge you to rethink this.

 

[usernamehere]

I don't think you should ever be doing that at all. Even if you find someone who accepts, you never know what horrid shit they could do to you besides carrying it out. I'd urge you to rethink this.

I know. Its just i tried to kill myself before and i was successful but their was medical introversion and i screamed so. I doubt it could pull it off.

Its very hard to generate i will die without hurting or traumatizing others

Im not sure if i care if ill be touted or assaulted obviously i do not want to but ive been before if i get to die then i see it as a bonus

I rather be traumatized and Murdered Than have to die in a way that does that to people

I cant and i cant risk being a vegetable in pain because that couldnt have happen with my last attempt