Venting I wish i could go holding my mom/friend hand

[Iwashereonce]

I know theyd never understand or want to do that but i just wish i could go that way, with someone by my side in my bed while i end my suffering, it'd be comforting to have someone i love talking to me and holding my hand.The really is that i will probably go to someone place really desert when theres noone in sight and take sn or gunshot to my head hoping it works out

 

[Apostle]

Yeah, it's crazy how much easier ctb, both emotionally and physically, could be if we all had someone in our life who was on board with it, and would comfort and help us in ending everything. I understand what you mean. The closest thing most of us have is probably this forum.

 

[k3v3r]

same, i often fantasize about having some kind of illness (whch will kill me), and while i'm lying there dying, i want the 2 most important people in my life to hold me. Sadly that's not an option :(

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes same

 

[StoleYoWaifu]

Know that feeling, tbh I want to ctb but doing it alone is the thing that fucks me up the most lol. But as you said, it's not like I can go and say

Hey, Imma kill myself, wanna see?

 

[HelpPlease]

I have brain damage

 

[Deardaddy]

I have brain damage

Are u suffering from drug withdrawal or cancer. For drug withdrawal ,yeah it feels this way,it's normal

 

[HelpPlease]

It's Brain damage bad from pysch drugs
It hurts nonstop