Venting I wish I could donate my life

[nintendo64]

I wish I could donate my life to someone who actually needs it.

It makes me sad, knowing there are so many people who are dying of things out of their control who actually want to live, meanwhile I've just given up and am going to die by choice. If I could donate my life to someone I would do it in a heartbeat.

I don't think I'm going to take SN when I ctb, I'm just going to hang myself so maybe someone can at least get some use out of my organs. I wish there was more I could do, but I'll just have to settle with that, giving away what little money I have and all my things before I go. At least then my death won't be all bad. Screw anyone who says suicide is selfish.

 

[Ashborne_Quietus]

I would like that too

 

[Carryline]

I wish i can donate my organs

 

[lollipoppi]

I literally think about this all the time. I don't want to be here anymore, I'm wasting my life while people out there who are talented and deeply loved, who actually bring good in this world die against their will. It's all so wrong.

 

[a4001]

Same. I have been allowed so much in life that people in a less fortunate place or age would claw their way up through hell just to get a glimpse of, and I spend this by already being a living corpse. I don't believe in souls but if I did I'd say that a different one in my circumstance would be able to bring such good onto this world, it's all a waste really.

 

[unluckysadness]

You guys are awesome So much compassion in your words. You really deserve a wonderful afterlife in paradise with a lot of PEACE.
I'll never understand why the good people have such painful lives, but one thing is sure : we are beautiful people here on SaSu and I hope God will forgive us.

 

[kuroshimi]

I think it's some kind of manifestation of the desire to leave anything behind. Since I became more desperate and suicidal, I thought about getting into creative work, because simply just want to leave something when I'm gone.

I think about it more and more often. The idea of donating life or creating some kind of artwork is very appealing to me.

 

[suicidalcatlady]

I wish I could donate my life to someone who actually needs it.

It makes me sad, knowing there are so many people who are dying of things out of their control who actually want to live, meanwhile I've just given up and am going to die by choice. If I could donate my life to someone I would do it in a heartbeat.

I don't think I'm going to take SN when I ctb, I'm just going to hang myself so maybe someone can at least get some use out of my organs. I wish there was more I could do, but I'll just have to settle with that, giving away what little money I have and all my things before I go. At least then my death won't be all bad. Screw anyone who says suicide is selfish.

I feel the exact same way and think about this all the time

 

[Cry Baby <3]

same, Ive always felt its so unfair

 

[Tautochrome]

Not to ruin the mood, but organs for harvesting have to be very fresh, oxygenated, and extracted according to strict procedures in a hospital setting, often from brain dead people continuously kept on life support. A body found some time after the fact would likely be dead tissue, with a few potential scientific uses, but not for internal organ donation...

 

[coldworld]

same here

 

[Deepdense]

You could just go to a hospital and sign up to donate everything you can. They'll call you when they need you.

 

[pancakelover20]

You guys are awesome So much compassion in your words. You really deserve a wonderful afterlife in paradise with a lot of PEACE.
I'll never understand why the good people have such painful lives, but one thing is sure : we are beautiful people here on SaSu and I hope God will forgive us.

the best people seem to struggle the most. it's incredibly sad.

 

[emptyshells]

I feel similarly. My friend from elementary school died in a car crash when we were 16. I spent many years wishing it was me instead. She is missed by many people, her family most of all. She left behind siblings who she took care of more than their parents did. She was a kind and bubbly person who would help any stranger she came across. She was smart and funny and a talented artist, that was how we became friends, sharing art supplies... I wish I could have given her my years left on this Earth. She would have spent them well. She wanted to go to university in the UK, just like me. I wasted that opportunity and I regret it immensely. I would trade with her in a heartbeat.

I also feel haunted by people calling suicide selfish. I don't want to waste my life, I don't want to hurt other people by CTB. But when people call me selfish for suicidal ideation, they don't understand that I don't have a life anyway. I'm not a real person like everyone else. I don't have family who will miss me. I don't have a job, or a social life. Is it so selfish to get rid of a burdensome waste? They don't get it.

 

[nintendo64]

Not to ruin the mood, but organs for harvesting have to be very fresh, oxygenated, and extracted according to strict procedures in a hospital setting, often from brain dead people continuously kept on life support. A body found some time after the fact would likely be dead tissue, with a few potential scientific uses, but not for internal organ donation...

I was thinking of calling an ambulance right before I do it, I've had one called to my house for an emergency before and it took them around 9 minutes to get here. I don't want my mom to find my body and I also figure I'll be brain dead by the point they arrive, but maybe there's a chance my organs will still be salvageable if I time it right.

 

[socksnsandles]

id feel bad for anyone taking my life over. but i do pray sometimes at night saying "a hundred thousand people are going to die tomorrow, make me one of them instead of some innocent person"

 

[peacecomingsoon]

I wish I could donate my life to someone who actually needs it.

It makes me sad, knowing there are so many people who are dying of things out of their control who actually want to live, meanwhile I've just given up and am going to die by choice. If I could donate my life to someone I would do it in a heartbeat.

I don't think I'm going to take SN when I ctb, I'm just going to hang myself so maybe someone can at least get some use out of my organs. I wish there was more I could do, but I'll just have to settle with that, giving away what little money I have and all my things before I go. At least then my death won't be all bad. Screw anyone who says suicide is selfish.

I feel this way too. I've even discussed in therapy before, wanting to be able to give up my life to provide someone else less fortunate with the opportunity. I don't deserve the life I've been given and wish that I could swap lives with someone else, in exchange for my death.

It has weighed on my mind too with my method of choice being SN, that my organs won't be able to be donated. Unfortunately, it is the only method I have available though and lethal enough. I'm sorry you're feeling this way too.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think to an extent, this is why suicide isn't selfish. That- if we were able to- many people would choose to do this. That we hate the thought of having been given an opportunity that would have benefitted someone else more.

I also remember running a poll where around 80% of members would have chosen not to be born to begin with. So- there is also I think, the feeling that we'd rather our lives- and deaths hadn't affected others.

 

[Daphne]

From my years of observation, it seems like good people die young and bullies outlive everyone

 

[doneforlife]

I had do the same. Donate.

 

[BillyBob]

I wish I could donate my life to someone who actually needs it.

It makes me sad, knowing there are so many people who are dying of things out of their control who actually want to live, meanwhile I've just given up and am going to die by choice. If I could donate my life to someone I would do it in a heartbeat.

I don't think I'm going to take SN when I ctb, I'm just going to hang myself so maybe someone can at least get some use out of my organs. I wish there was more I could do, but I'll just have to settle with that, giving away what little money I have and all my things before I go. At least then my death won't be all bad. Screw anyone who says suicide is selfish.

If I could switch bodies with someone suffering super bad pain, stage 4 cancer or something similar I would do it so they would be able to live life and maybe turn it around with their mindset.

As for your want to donate your organs or someone will be able to use them after you are found. There is a zero percent chance that would happen at all.
Your body may have an autopsy done and will be taken away for tests to make sure they know if there were any other factors leading too your death.
Even trying to donate your dead body to science is impossible from suicide from what I have looked up and read sadly.
Sorry if this is not what you want to hear.

 

[dead dav]

Pitty you can't just go into hospital and your organs harvested rest maybe used as animal food

 

[ceelobling]

I have no meaning, if I donated my body that would be beneficial to others. The only impact I ever had was in death.

 

[BlockedintheUK]

@dead dav - Pitty you can't just go into hospital and your organs harvested rest maybe used as animal food - I like this idea lol

 

[Realog11]

I feel similarly. My friend from elementary school died in a car crash when we were 16. I spent many years wishing it was me instead. She is missed by many people, her family most of all. She left behind siblings who she took care of more than their parents did. She was a kind and bubbly person who would help any stranger she came across. She was smart and funny and a talented artist, that was how we became friends, sharing art supplies... I wish I could have given her my years left on this Earth. She would have spent them well. She wanted to go to university in the UK, just like me. I wasted that opportunity and I regret it immensely. I would trade with her in a heartbeat.

I also feel haunted by people calling suicide selfish. I don't want to waste my life, I don't want to hurt other people by CTB. But when people call me selfish for suicidal ideation, they don't understand that I don't have a life anyway. I'm not a real person like everyone else. I don't have family who will miss me. I don't have a job, or a social life. Is it so selfish to get rid of a burdensome waste? They don't get it.

Same as me my ex friend died by drowning I don't know what our relationship was before he died. Because we didn't stay connected, I still went to this funeral but I wish it was me instead of him

 

[no-hope-no-future]

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I wish i can donate my organs

If i could I would donate my heart, lungs maybe even my kidneys. I would have to choose who they went to though as I wouldn't want anyone who smokes or drinks alcohol to receive them and just waste them.