Venting i wish i could celebrate the birthday of others

[_Minsk]

today is the birthday of my dad, i wish i could just be with him and show him that i care for him. this also goes for some friends, there ain't many but still, i wish i could be with them:/ i just hate being depressed and social anxious, even since childhood im struggling with it, and the older i get the harder it seems to become. all birthday parties in the last years were horrible, i felt so out of place, i just wanted to disappear, im supposed to smile but i simply cant anymore, it used to be easier but it seems impossible now.. i just hate it, i feel like some might misinterpret it and think i don't care, but i care, its frustrating..

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

it's the same for me. I can hardly participate to the joy of others. Everyone is always giving celebrations to share important events of their life: a marriage, a baby, a birthday, a new job. But no one has 1 minute to listen to someone that is suffering or is alone.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I was never that close to my parents.

But perhaps you can send your dad/friends
birthday presents/birthday card/a message
if you are not yet comfortable attending their birthday physically?

Things are hard when you are dealing with depression and anxiety.
I get what you mean.