I will CTB tomorrow

[Painless_end]

I don't know how. But I will CTB.

I am not impulsive. I have no money problems.

I have no unfulfilled desires. No one has broken my heart.

I will CTB to escape the mindless churn of existence and having to always keep fighting physically and mentally to stand in society.

This is NOT a cry for help or sympathy. This is a declaration of CTB put in writing to affirm and confirm the action to be taken. If I don't put this in writing, I will end up dilly dallying over the whole thing again. I am an artistic & spiritual soul who has reached peak satisfaction in life.

I am well and truly at internal peace at this exact moment of writing this, however, it is not lasting. I will have to physically and mentally struggle again tomorrow and the next day and the next....I don't want to talk about it anymore. Life has no meaning left for me anymore.

My mind and body have been tested to the limits as life does with everyone. I am done and thank everyone here for being supportive.


Goodbye.

 

[issyishere]

We will support any choice you make. Do you have any idea how you might though?

 

[rolltheblunt]

Good luck on your journey.

 

[Jean4]

We are here for you and won't stop you.

Not having a plan is impulsive. Again, it's your choice. However, I suggest you develop a plan to prevent permanent damage and making things worse.

We are here if you would like to talk.

 

[Carina]

We totally support you no matter what you want to do.

But what @Jean4 said is what I'd say too, I'd suggest a plan if you could to prevent complications. Up to you of course, you've got some time left to make one, figure out what to do/etc. But totally up to you of course.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Good luck

 

[LastRide]

I can totally relate to your feelings, and I wish you find peace. But do think of a plan ahead, luckily this forum provides lots of options, and if you're not sure about your choice we're here to help....

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish you peace.

 

[Lastsauce]

We totally support you no matter what you want to do.

Just noticed your mesage rate, wow :)

 

[Jean4]

Checking in with you. Are you OK? Is there anything we can do for you?

 

[Lostandfound7]

Hello Sweetie..I see u have already made up ur mind to ctb..Is there anything we can do for u in the meantime? Talk? Listen? Love on u? * (we're good at that.lol)

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Please don't act without a plan. It's unlikely to work out how you want. Existential depression is bad enough, none of us want to wake up in an even worse situation.
I hope you will stick around and talk.
Life is a sruggle and it is sometimes defined by suffering. That is an experience we all share here and I guarantee you'll find people here who understand, at least as much as another person can.

 

[Painless_end]

I'm still alive

 

[Lostandfound7]

I'm still alive

Glad ur still with us...

 

[Painless_end]

Still alive. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I am too clumsy and unco-ordinated to research into any elaborate method, even hanging.

I honestly feel like life is going to fuck me up now because I somehow I am "resisting" suicide and trying to be normal even though I am hanging on to "normal" life by very thin threads today.

Suicide is an escape. And in the absence of escape, I cannot imagine the darkness that my life may take in future.

 

[Jean4]

Still alive. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I am too clumsy and unco-ordinated to research into any elaborate method, even hanging.

I honestly feel like life is going to fuck me up now because I somehow I am "resisting" suicide and trying to be normal even though I am hanging on to "normal" life by very thin threads today.

Suicide is an escape. And in the absence of escape, I cannot imagine the darkness that my life may take in future.

May I suggest you read the resource section? There, you can take your time to research and see what method would be best for you.

 

[Painless_end]

May I suggest you read the resource section? There, you can take your time to research and see what method would be best for you.

Anything that just comes up on me unawares and takes me out instantly and painlessly is my method.

 

[LastRide]

Anything that just comes up on me unawares and takes me out instantly and painlessly is my method.

Sorry but that method does not exist..."unawares" usually means a lot of pain, the only way to avoid pain is to be very well prepared...

 

[Soul]

@Curious89, I'm sorry you're contemplating such things, but since you are, please have a good browse through this thread:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/