Venting i wanted to be happy

[aeri]

i am so sorry. i am so sorry. i didn't want to be mentally ill. i didn't want to be depressed. i didn't wa't to be suicidal. i am so sorry. i wanted to live my life i wanted to make lots of music i wanted to play a lot i wanted tp be happy im. sos sorry. everyone abandoned me. as they should have had. im glad thzy did. im a nuisance. i am so sorry. i wish i could have had enjoyed life
I AM SO SORRY I AM SORRY I AM SORRY
I AM SO SORRY I AM A PIECE OF SHIT I SHOULD HAVE DI3D
i am sorry. i am so sorry. i understand why u had to abandon me. im so sorry im worthless. im sorry

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

It's not your fault dear. You are human just was dealt bad cards. You didn't deserve all this pain and suffering.
I am hugging you

 

[niki wonoto]

I can relate
- from Indonesia -

 

[eternalflame]

I wish you both were happy.
DO you take medications?

 

[aeri]

no

 

[Klophy]

I can relate, i wanted to be better too, life doesn't seem to agree though.

 

[eternalflame]

Did you think about it? Can you afford them or do they make you worse?

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really is so unfair and it is sad how so many of us live lives which are just pain and misery. It seems as though there is no escape from suffering in a life like this. I hope that you find relief.

 

[Idontmatter]

I can 100 percent relate. I hate myself because i can't handle my life and because im so suicidal. Im just a weak person. My depression is out of hand and nothing works. I have just over 2 weeks and I'll be gone. Sadly I hate myself for leaving my family. My note is going to have a lot of im sorry.

 

[aeri]

i can't stop crying i cant function anymore
i will go to the emergencies tonight. i do not want to go to work tomorrow. i dont want to work and be productive while im on the verge of crying. i cant function

 

[eternalflame]

Wish you strenght.

 

[aeri]

plz anyone help me

 

[eternalflame]

What help do you need? CAn you go to the doctor?

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

plz anyone help me

sounds like you might be depressed as fuck - try the usual way, see if it works, crisis team, A&E, etc - maybe there is hope for you this way, who knows