I want to write my suicide note

[Sans]

I want to write my suicide note, but every time I sit down to write, my mind goes blank.

All my reasons for CTB are very clear, but I can't figure out how to put it on paper.

I'm so tired of everything.

 

[SosoruzeDosukoi]

Can you record some stream of consciousness thing to help collect your thoughts when writing?

 

[Fehler]

It happened to me when I didn't have it written, and I like to write; I was blocked and did not know what to put. Now I have 3 cards and surely I end up with a 4th. As they have said, write your thoughts aside, it helped me to have the writing more orderly.

 

[logan]

That is also really difficult ...
Especially finding the right words and phrases.

Maybe it helps to think if these thoughts are meant for everyone or if you want to tell something to a specific person.

 

[mossball]

It doesn't have to be a final version. Any writing has drafts. Have you tried just putting everything down? Like a stream of consciousness, as said above. Then you can pick ideas and sentiments off of that and write a more condensed one. I hope this makes some sense.

 

[Bedrock48]

Can you record some stream of consciousness thing to help collect your thoughts when writing?

Exactly what I was thinking, one evening when I was in a bad place I just opened up a word document. Not intending to write a suicide note but I just wrote whatever came to mind. Thoughts, feelings, why I was feeling so bad that night. No thinking about particular bits, really just throwing everything I was thinking and feeling onto paper. Pretty cathartic if you ask me. I was listening to some depressing music too at the time. I think that's an optional step but it might help you "tap into" that part of you. Obviously skip this step if you feel like it's be dangerous for you to do so.

Went back a few weeks later to realise most of it would make for a good note. With some editing I think it came together alright.

Another thing I've done for the past year or two is write a note and read it back every few months. Editing and rewriting as needed at a time I had the mental energy to do so. Certainly not something you need to get right the first time.

It's definitely tiring and not something to rush, it could even be just a couple of lines to start off with.

 

[The Lonely]

I'm packing my belongings in boxes (as if I was moving). Then I'm writing what's inside (books, cds, DVD's, clothes)…

My only note will be about "If Possible, I would like destiny all my belongings to charity".

And I will thank for my psychologist for being the more closely resemble of what human being should be like…(I would program an email to be sent to her but since he has a heart issue… it may not end well)…

Other than this I don't have anything to say.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, I know it can be hard to get everything you want to say into a note. I think in my case, I might just make notes here and there of things that I want to say when they come to mind, rather than sitting down intending to write it. My note will mostly be saying that now I am in a better place and there is nothing you could have done, things like that.