
Polka
Student
- Oct 6, 2019
- 135
Want to talk with older members ~50 years old things took a turn for the unexpected and I would like some 2nd opinions. Chat seems very slow so I thought I would try the forum. Thanks.
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I wanted to know what others thought about me dying so that she could have a better chance of a happier life with a non depressed geezer.
BiPolarExpat has a better hold on this question than I do. All I can say, what little I can still store in my mind, is that I appreciate your ability to give thought to the needs of another person during this phase of your life. I sometimes feel that ability has gotten away from me.I can help her to have a good life by ctb'ing then is that crazy?
I have been down this road for years now. I sometimes wonder if I would have been a bit different if I just shook myself down a bit and put myself out on the market so to speak. I think that it wouldn't but it would have been interesting to have a comparison.5 months. But 5 months of hard study and analysis. I am super focused on the truth wherever that leads.
i never studied this hard for my academic qualifications. I think I Iearned more during these last 5 months than the last 40 years.
That is true. Never did online dating for the fear of rejection making things worseno point when so many women initiate divorce. Online dating/social isolation is another killer.
Yes. I think this is not an unreasonable assumption. I think of it as the broken-brain syndrome.I think some people's brains and bodies are wired to have a harder time forgetting the past and overcoming mental illness, especially when medications aren't effective.
I've come to a point where the illness has so subsumed my psyche, that now it's all I have to identify with.Anyway, I know my illness has become part of my identity even though it's not who I am.
Anyway, I know my illness has become part of my identity even though it's not who I am
That's the terrifying power of self-reflection. You come to recognize that the image you've been staring at in mirrors has been a distorted reflection of oneself. I cry all the time now as well.I cry just about every day now. I never thought I was a nutter until recently.
I'd like to believe that, especially if something does come after this existence. These are big lessons learned too late, but wouldn't it be wonderful to think that they would not prove a complete loss. I'm not a believer in an afterlife, although I wish I were. Although the Karmic wheel of life is a terrifying concept, it at least permits for the chance of redemption. It's a pleasant and satisfying dream.Maybe that was the lesson